Re:Zero Arc 4 Chapter 110 [The Reason To Believe]

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Translator: TranslationChicken

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Editor: TranslationChicken

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ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO TAPPEI NAGATSUKI, THE ORIGINAL AUTHOR OF RE:ZERO, THIS IS A TRANSLATION OF THE FREE JAPANESE WEB NOVEL INTO ENGLISH
JAPANESE WEB NOVEL SOURCE: HTTP://NCODE.SYOSETU.COM/N2267BE/280/

Previous Chapter: https://translationchicken.com/2019/01/20/rezero-arc-4-chapter-109-the-wrong-choice-part-3-3/

ARC 4

THE EVERLASTING COVENANT

Chapter 110 [The Reason To Believe]

 

When he saw Emilia huddled up, hugging her knees, Subaru was washed over by an inopportune sense of relief.

Part of it was because he found Emilia, and part of it was because he found her here.
He was convinced that this was the only place she could be, and he had hoped that this was where she’d be. Being right on both accounts, he felt a weight fall in the pit of his stomach.

[Subaru: Actually, come to think of it, Emilia-tan]

[Emilia: …………]

[Subaru: This really is a nice place to hole up if you don’t want anyone to find you. Not many people could come in here, and those who could wouldn’t want to, anyway]

Besides Emilia―― only three other people could enter Echidona’s Tomb.
One rejected the Trials and despised the Tomb, one witnessed another’s past and chose to entrust the Sanctuary’s future to someone else, whereas the last one roused the Witch’s ire halfway through his Trial and had his qualification revoked.
All other qualified people were barred by severe restrictions not to enter.
So indeed, this hiding place had “Emilia Only” written all over it.

Emilia did not reply to Subaru’s honest praise.
She only remained curled up, silently looking up at Subaru.

[Subaru: ――Mind if I sit beside you? Standing is… honestly pretty exhausting]

[Emilia: …………]

[Subaru: Where I come from, silence means yes. So, ‘scuse me]

Bathed in Emilia’s focused stare, Subaru magnificently proclaimed this and sat down at her side.
A distance of two fists was as close as Subaru’s manly courage could take him. Before he could get any closer, he’d have to use his words and appeals to shorten the emotional distance between them.

Because, right now, the distance separating their hearts was likely far greater than the widths of their fists.

[Subaru: ――――]

[Emilia: ――――]

Sitting next to each other, a brief silence fell between them.
Subaru patiently waited for Emilia to speak, while Emilia watched him as he waited. Her lips quivered several times, until finally, with some hesitation,

[Emilia: Subaru……]

[Subaru: ――――]

[Emilia: How….. are you here?]

[Subaru: How, huh… that’s a tricky one. Since you’re always on my mind, Emilia-tan, I managed to find you in no time, I guess]

He was rather proud of that fact.
Since it meant that he was the only one, at least in the Sanctuary, who knew Emilia well enough to accurately divine her feelings.
Although, if he were truly attuned to Emilia’s feelings, he wouldn’t be speaking to her inside the Tomb right now.

At Subaru’s answer, Emilia’s eyes widened.
But then, she shook her head as if that wasn’t the answer she was looking for.

[Emilia: No. That’s not it, Subaru. I wasn’t asking how you got here…… I meant…… I thought only people who were granted the qualification could enter the Tomb]

[Subaru: You sure you didn’t forget, Emilia-tan? The first day we got here, when you fainted inside, I rushed straight in here to bring you out. Apparently, if the Witch hates me like she hates Roswaal, I would’ve exploded the instant I walked in. But, turns out it wasn’t that bad for me. Just feels floaty like I’m in an elevator that’s constantly a second before stopping. Nothing I can’t handle]

[Emilia: ……I, see]

Emilia muttered, a bit disappointed that this place wasn’t as exclusive as she thought. Then, she cast a worried gaze over Subaru, who seemed increasingly wracked by nausea.
Even though she must be desperately trying to put the mess inside her head in order, the fact that she was still thinking of others even now was at once admirable, heartbreaking, and sweet.

[Emilia: So then…… how did you know I was here?]

Rather than silence, Subaru seemed more at ease when distracted by conversation.
Perhaps having noticed this over the course of their exchange, when she saw him heaving with labored breaths, Emilia presented Subaru with a new question.
Her words were laced with suspicion and resignation, intermixed with some complex, indecipherable emotion.
Her resignation was haphazard, and her suspicion almost paranoid: Both traits which Emilia rarely ever showed―― in fact, this might be the first time Subaru had ever seen them.

[Emilia: ……Subaru?]

[Subaru: Aah, sorry sorry. Let’s see, how did I know you were here, well, uh, pr-probably because there’s nothing about Emilia-tan that I don’t know, so…]

[Emilia: Liar]

He wasn’t trying to joke around, but his frivolous answer was nevertheless promptly rejected.
Setting her chin on her knees, Emilia tilted her head as she looked at Subaru. The emotions fluttering within her amethyst eyes were of the pinnacle of chaotic turmoil, as if on the precipice of engulfing her.

Hating the emotions that her eyes were revealing, Emilia turned away, pouting, so that Subaru could no longer see them.

[Emilia: You won’t fool me even if you say that. ――When I don’t even properly know myself, how could you possibly know?]

[Subaru: It’s surprising how little people can see of themselves. Even when others around them can see all the way to their bootsoles]

He wouldn’t call it personal experience, but it did seem to happen to him over and over.
Each time, he’d get all fired up, unaware of how thoughtless, reckless, and senseless he was being. And only when someone finally spells it out for him, would he begin to notice it for himself.
Once, someone had pointed this out to Subaru, and for the very first time――

[Subaru: I figured you’d be here, Emilia-tan, half out of faith, and half out of hope]

[Emilia: Half, and half……]

[Subaru: I looked all over the village but couldn’t find you anywhere. So instead of thinking about where you might have gone, I thought as hard as I could about why you left in the first place. And when I did, I figured you must be here. And when I found you, I was relieved like you wouldn’t believe]

[Emilia: ……You were relieved, that’s all?]

[Subaru: Huh?]

As Subaru relaxed his lips into a relieved smile, Emilia asked.
Her voice was quiet, almost inaudible. Subaru raised his brows when he heard this, while Emilia locked her gaze onto his as if to peer into the depths of his eyes,

[Emilia: When you found me here, you were just relieved? ……You weren’t angry?]

[Subaru: What, Emilia-tan… No way, were you scared that I’d be mad at you?]

Her timid attitude almost made Subaru burst out chuckling.
Running off without telling anyone where she was going, only to get scared of reprimands when she was found, that’s exactly what a child would do.
Although it kind of made sense now that he’s learned about her actual and mental age, it was still incredibly unlike her.
But Subaru decided to pay the strangeness no heed and only shook his head.

[Subaru: I’m not angry at all. I was anxious, and honestly super panicked, but not mad. And considering that I found you here, I’m really glad]

[Emilia: ……I see]

The emotions Subaru felt for the missing Emilia was something other than anger.
And even if there was any anger, it’d be at himself for missing the warning signs and failing to anticipate Emilia’s actions. But that anxious, panicked feeling of all his plans coming to ruin was all drowned beneath the flood of relief when he found her.
And so, Emilia’s worries were needless. At least, that’s what he was trying to tell her.

[Emilia: You’re not… angry]

That’s what he tried to tell her, yet her mutter was not one of relief.

[Subaru: ――Emilia?]

[Emilia: You’re not… angry at me. ――You won’t… even get angry at me]

Her voice was quiet, hoarse, and trembling.
By the time Subaru furrowed his brows in astonishment, it was already too late.
Looking down, biting her lip, Emilia’s eyes opened wide.

Tears welled under her eyelids as she tried to keep them from spilling.

[Emilia: Why… can’t you be angry]

[Subaru: Emili――]

[Emilia: I did something selfish… didn’t I? I did something that distressed you, didn’t I? I disappeared without saying a word, and I worried you, didn’t I? I made you anxious, wondering if I’d run away…… that’s the sort of thing I did, wasn’t it? And when someone does that to you, shouldn’t you be angry? Or aren’t you like that, Subaru?]

Drowning out Subaru’s voice, Emilia spouted her feelings like a torrent.
Emphasizing the selfishness of her actions, she closed in on Subaru as if pressing him to condemn her.

Overwhelmed by her unrelenting pressure, Subaru finally realized that he had made a decisive error in choosing his words.
Emilia wasn’t scared that Subaru would be angry at her.
Emilia was scared that Subaru wouldn’t reproach her for her actions.
Because――

[Emilia: Why aren’t you angry……? You’re not angry… because you never expected anything from me in the first place, right? You saw how I failed, but you’re still being kind to me…… because you aren’t even disappointed in me, right? Because you never thought I could’ve done it…… right?]

[Subaru: ――――]

Perhaps those were the fears that Emilia had always harbored, but was never able to voice, like a darkness wallowing in the depths of her heart.

How many times had she challenged the Trials, only to be sent back with her spirit broken?
She hated herself for it, and the others showed their disappointment at her failure, but there were also those among them who would never fault her, like Subaru and Puck.

Yet even as she felt saved by Subaru and Puck’s presence, she’d always be fighting this unshakable anxiety.

Disappointment meant that there was expectation.
She hated herself because she was disgusted with how she couldn’t put up a fight.
And while being gently consoled even after she had failed and failed provided temporary relief for her heart, it only fanned the flames of a far greater anxiety.

For Emilia had always dreaded Subaru and Puck’s kindness.

[Subaru: No, Emilia. That’s not what I think…]

Belatedly realizing the immensity of the waves surging in Emilia’s heart, Subaru spoke up.
If he doesn’t catch Emilia here and now, something terrible is going to happen. If she continues to reject him like this, even if he tries reaching for her, he will never seize her again.
And so, with no time to consider his words, he raised his voice,

[Subaru: I can’t get mad at you, but it’s not because of anything like that……]

[Emilia: If that’s true, then……! Why! Why…… didn’t you keep your promise……?]

[Subaru: ――――hg!]

Having his knee-jerk reaction shot down, the change of topic caused Subaru’s face to stiffen.
The “Promise” Emilia spoke of was the one he’d made to her the night before. And as for whether or not it was fulfilled――

[Emilia: I asked you to hold my hand until morning! And you promised me you would, Subaru…… so why did you let go of my hand? Why didn’t you keep your promise……?]

[Subaru: ――――]

[Emilia: B-both you, and Puck, broke…… your promises, and disappeared. You left me behind, and went away…… you liars. Subaru you liar. Puck you liar…… you liars, liars…… liars……]

Her tearful voice lashed out, condemning their broken promises.
With her face downcast and tears streaming from her eyes, Emilia butted her head into Subaru’s shoulder before weakly slapping her hand against his chest. The force was equivalent to nothing. But even so, it hurt as though he’d been punched clean through.
This was the accumulation of all the pain which Subaru had overlooked, which Emilia had endured.
And which Subaru and Puck had so callously showered upon her.

[Emilia: P-promises are important…… I told you that, I told you, didn’t I! That for Spirits-Arts Users, for me, promises are important…… and so I wanted you to keep them…… but when you’re supposed to have just apologized to me for not having kept one…… you broke, a promise again……]

[Subaru: ……Emilia]

[Emilia: Never break promises…… never tell lies…… promises must always be kept…… because if they aren’t….. if I don’t, then…… Mother and Geuse……]

With her face still pressed against Subaru’s shoulder, Emilia’s emotions wandered, aimless and lost. The upheavals of her emotions and the grief at his betrayal had torn her thoughts into a thousand disjointed shreds.
Her faltering words grew incoherent, until Emilia was sobbing like a bawling child,

[Emilia: Never tell lies…… never……]

Listening to her voice shaking with grief, Subaru felt a clawing pain tearing at the insides of his chest.
“Promise”―― was a word whose resonances carried different meanings for Subaru and Emilia. Once, Subaru had made light of their promise and wounded her, and opened a mutual rift between them.
After their reunion, they reaffirmed the significance of promises, and sealed one in the form of a bond.

Nevertheless, “Promise” was not a gentle word, but a severe burden binding the two of them together.
More than anything, whenever she talked about “Promises”, Emilia would seem different than usual: As if something, some integral part of Emilia’s being, tethered her to promises.

[Emilia: ――――]

With her head buried between her knees, Emilia was weeping.
And every second Subaru spent watching her cut another gash of guilt into his heart.

Her sobs echoed into his ears as he frantically considered what to say.
Should he apologize? Should he pretend to understand? Should he desperately try to console her? How much of his considerations was it safe to convey?

Subaru’s head spun and spun as he thought, unable to grasp any hint of a solution.
What to do, what could he do, what should he do, and which is the best course of action?

[Subaru: ――――]

Think, think, think, Subaru closed his eyes amidst his whirling thoughts, and then――
He felt he’d reached the answer on what to do:

[Subaru: Emilia. ――I love you]

[Emilia: ――――]

Those words had no business being spoken in this situation.

[Emilia: ……huh?]

Hearing this, Emilia slipped an astonished groan and looked up.
Her teary amethyst eyes opened wide as she caught Subaru in her gaze. Seeing his own twisted visage reflected on her teardrop―― all he could do was steady himself to confront his own heart.
After all, he no longer had any doubt on what he wanted to say.

[Subaru: Night after night… you throw yourself at the same exact Trial over and over again. And what is this Trial, anyway? It’s just the goddamn past, isn’t it? Well quit dawdling around getting caught up on things that’ve already passed!]

[Emilia: ……ah, hg]

[Subaru: And just when I figured I’d do it for you, you start saying it’s something you have to do yourself and got so goddamn stubborn about it. It’d be one thing if it helped you get past it, but if you’re just getting the same results anyway, then it was all just talk, wasn’t it? How about taking a moment to consider what it feels like, having to watch you fall down over and over again?]

[Emilia: s…subaru……]

[Subaru: And just because your pet-slash-guardian went missing, you can’t even stand by yourself anymore? You throw a tantrum and cry your heart out making everybody worried about you, then you shirk your responsibilities to go sulk in bed. Well how lovely for you, but enough’s enough, I’m sick of it!]

Emilia’s eyes bulged in disbelief as she listened to Subaru’s tirade. Her damp eyes forgot their tears thanks to the shock, while her lips weakly quivered, unable to pronounce any meaningful words.
Without a doubt, more than ever before, Emilia’s heart was being deeply wounded.
Faced with Natsuki Subaru’s scorn and contempt, never once directed at her before, her heart was torn to pieces.

Emilia’s face contorted.
This was not tearful grief, nor tantrum-inciting rage, nor the hollowness of resignation and defeat.
Showered by abuses she’d never heard before, Emilia’s expression changed. Not to any of the more fitting emotions, but to something else entirely.

――On Emilia’s lips rose a horrifically dry smile.

[Emilia: That’s…… right, isn’t it. O-of course…… you’d, think this about me too, Subaru……]

[Subaru: ――――]

[Emilia: There’s no way to dress it up, is there…… I’m awful. Ever since I came to the Sanctuary…… no, even long before that…… all I ever did was cause trouble…… and so, I……]

[Subaru: Yeah. You honestly haven’t done a single good thing since you came to the Sanctuary. I know I’m not one to talk here, but this is just way too horrendous. There’s no getting around it]

Subaru affirmed the trembling Emilia’s self-negations.
Hearing this, Emilia’s throat made a choked groan. Swallowing a sob, or something close to it, and with her pained smile still upon her face,

[Emilia: And that’s why…… both you, and Puck…… ab-abandoned me, of course……]

[Subaru: Yes. You’ve pulled a lot of crap, and you’re still showing no signs of getting better. Rather than wanting to do something about it at this point, the only natural conclusion is that you’re hopeless no matter what]

Emilia tried to answer Subaru’s rebukes.
But Subaru snatched the tail of her reply and slammed her with this merciless critique.

[Subaru: ――But]

Just before reaching the end, Subaru’s denouncements ceased.
Emilia looked up at Subaru. Rising in her eyes was an emotion which only Subaru would understand.

――For it was the same emotion that Subaru had once felt himself.

[Subaru: I love you. ――Emilia]

Using the same words which he had been unable to escape from, Subaru blocked off Emilia’s escape.

 

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The long lashes bordering her eyes trembled as Subaru’s words robbed her of her consciousness.

Seeing her frozen there, with even her thoughts ground to a halt, Subaru’s cheeks slightly softened.
It wasn’t relief, and certainly not ridicule. If one must give it a name, it’d have to be nostalgia.

So nostalgic that he wanted to shout out everything inside him, alongside everything Emilia wanted to hear.

[Subaru: I love you. I love you, love you, love you, so much that I can’t help myself but love you]

[Emilia: W-what’re you…… saying, all of a sudden……]

[Subaru: I love your super-pretty silver hair, I love your amethyst eyes and how they look like jewels when they’re wet, I super-love your voice and how I get dreamy just from hearing it, and there’s your slender long legs and your fair-white skin, and our crazy-ideal height difference, and the fact that just being with you makes my heart race uncontrollably, and all of it makes me fall head-over-heels in love with you]

[Emilia: ――――]

[Subaru: I love how you’re just a little dopey, and it’s adorable how you put your best into everything, I admire how fervent you get for other people’s sakes, and the way you disregard yourself makes me feel like I just can’t leave you alone, and nothing would make me happier than to be able to watch all of your expressions and all of your emotions from here at your side…… that’s what I’ve always felt]

[Emilia: This isn’t the time to…… stop messing with me!]

All his feelings for Emilia flowed from his mouth like a flood.
But Emilia shook Subaru’s words away with a shriek.

Heaving her shoulders, with her brows shot up, Emilia bared her fury at the backpedalling Subaru who was acting as though he hadn’t said any of those hurtful things to her.

[Emilia: Why are you saying this all of a sudden! This isn’t what we were talking about! S-Subaru… you just said that I’m utterly useless, that I’m completely lacking, that’s what you were saying! You’re sick of it, you can’t bear watching anymore…… y-you said, that, I……]

[Subaru: Yeah, I did. After all the uselessness and empty talk I had to put up with only to see the same hopeless result, considering how impatient I am in the first place, I should’ve stopped loving you a long time ago. And I would have, if it was anyone but you, Emilia]

[Emilia: But why!!]

While acknowledging her worthless record, Subaru held off on the most important judgment.
Unable to accept this, unable to allow this omission, Emilia screamed.

[Emilia: All that uselessness and hopelessness, that’s who I am, isn’t it!? So why’re you trying to overlook it? Why’re you trying to forgive me? Why……]

[Subaru: If that’s what you’re asking, then I’ve told you countless times already! IT’S BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!]

[Emilia: ――――hk]

Met with Emilia’s tearful protests, Subaru pushed his face into hers and shouted.
Overwhelmed by his advance, Emilia flinched back, but for each inch she retreated, Subaru closed the same distance. The fact that they were gazing into each other’s eyes, close enough for their breaths to intertwine, did not change.

[Subaru: I love you. So no matter how disappointing you are, I’ll think of it as discovering another side of you, and even if you aren’t strong enough, I’ll keep supporting you as you keep giving it your best, and no matter how fed up you are with yourself, I’ll never dislike you]

[Emilia: ――――]

[Subaru: Even if you hate how weak and pathetic you are, and worry that everyone’ll give up on you…… I’ll keep expecting things from you, and I’ll never leave you, no matter how weak you are]

Emilia’s eyes wavered.
The gaze which she’d fixed upon Subaru―― was filled with a weakness that was yearning to receive his rebukes, to indulge in its own resignation, and to drown in a pool of her own sorrow and grief.
Emilia wanted to be condemned. Perhaps because it is only when everyone has given up on you, and when you recognize that you are entirely beyond saving, that, for the first time, you’d truly feel saved.

Subaru knew that feeling, but he also knew what it was like to be guided out of it.
Because Natsuki Subaru had once tried to abandon himself as well, but nevertheless failed to make everyone else abandon him.

[Subaru: I’ve fallen madly in love with you. Everything good about you shines brilliantly for me. And of course I know not everything about you is good. You’re…… you’re not an angel, not a goddess, just an ordinary girl. Pain and hardship makes you want to cry, and you want to avoid the things that you don’t like, and, if possible, you’d much rather choose only the easy and enjoyable paths]

[Emilia: ――――]

[Subaru: But despite those weak, or even ugly parts of you, I love the entire person that is Emilia. And so…… even now, I’m not disappointed in you at all]

[Emilia: ――Th! Thats! Don’t you think that’s too selfish!?]

Subaru’s lips weaved his longing into words.
Listening to them in sequence, Emilia couldn’t suppress her turmoil as she objected.

[Emilia: You’ve just denounced me, and said time and time again that I’m useless, and now you’re saying you love me anyway…… how can you expect me to believe that! Subaru, why would you have that kind of faith in me…… it makes no sense at all!]

[Subaru: Wrong! You got it all wrong! It’s not because I believe in you that I love you! ――It’s because I love you that I believe in you! It’s that way around!]

[Emilia: Love isn’t a reason to believe in someone!]

[Subaru: ――Gh! If love isn’t a reason to believe in someone, then who the hell would go through all this suffering to help a pain-in-the-ass woman like you!?]

Voices peaking, the two’s emotions crashed into each other.
Subaru pressed his hand to the wall and dragged himself up to stand while Emilia also stood up to face him.

Close enough to butt heads, each with their brows raised, Subaru and Emilia barked out their emotions.
Sending spit flying, faces red, shouting “No you’re wrong!”, were the two of them who’d never screamed at each other before.

[Subaru: I love you! I love you so much that it drives me crazy, so much that I could die for you. That’s why I put up with all the pain and the suffering and why I’m standing in front of you now even though I’m close to puking!]

[Emilia: That’s! I never asked for that! Going off saying whatever selfish things you want…… you’re the one who’s never thought about my feelings, Subaru! Just like now…… when you’re putting yourself in harm’s way and always getting hurt because of me…… do you have any idea how that makes me feel!?]

[Subaru: How am I supposed to know how you feel when I’ve never even thought about it! All I ever think about is how to look cool in front of you! What’ll make you think the best of me, what’ll make you happy……. when I’m here working my ass off, how about going with the plan and giving me a cute look once in a while!]

[Emilia: Don’t treat me like I’m a doll! If all you want is for me to be happy…… th-then, why did you break your promise! All you had to do was stay with me like I asked you to! So why didn’t you! I bet you actually hate me, don’t you!]

[Subaru: I love you!!]

[Emilia: You’re lying!!]

Subaru spewed forth all his emotions in desperation, only for Emilia to shout over him.
How much of a detour had he once taken just to voice these very feelings? How many obstacles had Subaru had to overcome just for the sake of conveying those words to her?
These confessions of love, thrown around so much that they begin to feel cheap, were all Subaru’s truest sentiments, fused with the whole of his being, seeping through every portion of his soul.

[Subaru: I’m not lying! I love you! But how about you tell me what you feel about me for once! All you’ve ever given me is insinuations! Do you have any idea how much it jolts my heart every time you make those cute expressions and it seems like there’s hope!? Stop messing with me!]

[Emilia: I-I’m not messing with you! I’m just being normal, stop saying weird things! I have so many things to think about right now and I’m facing such serious problems, and you’re asking me how I feel about you…… I can’t think about those kinds of things! Stop it! Stop bullying me!]

[Subaru: Who’s bullying who here! It’s you! You’re the one bullying me!]

[Emilia: It’s you bullying me! Subaru!]

Without a shred of logic, it was a clash of emotions.
Like two children throwing tantrums showering insults at each other, Subaru and Emilia loudly asserted their respective feelings.

Their voices echoed through the dim, narrow Tomb, shattering the long silence that’d existed since the Tomb’s construction. The intensity of their argument could practically slap the Tomb’s sleeper awake, with the two of them raggedly panting as they guided their fruitless quarrel towards its conclusion.

[Emilia: I can’t trust anything you say anymore! You are a liar! You broke your promise, and then you just show up in front of me again like nothing happened…… y-you thought I wouldn’t notice, didn’t you! But I was watching! I was watching to see whether you’d keep your promise to me!]

[Subaru: Well what an asshole thing to do! Don’t you feel embarrassed pulling this crap, pretending to be weak so you can test people!]

[Emilia: I shouldn’t have to hear this from a promise-breaking liar!]

[Subaru: Me breaking my promise has nothing to do with this!]

Emilia’s cheeks blushed with fury as Subaru callously tried to sidestep the issue.
So overwhelmed by emotion that she couldn’t even speak, Emilia took several ragged breaths before finally wrenching out the words,

[Emilia: Why…… why did you break your promise?]

[Subaru: ……I’m sorry I broke my promise, I am. I wanted to keep holding your hand and stay with you until morning, I really wanted to]

[Emilia: That’s not what I asked. ――Why did you break your promise?]

[Subaru: ……I can’t say it]

Gritting his teeth, Subaru replied to Emilia’s question with an anguished groan.
Seeing him trying to dodge the question even now, Emilia expelled a long sigh.

[Emilia: You won’t keep your promises. And you won’t tell me why you broke them. ……Then what’re you telling me? If you’re going to tell me you love me…… then act like it! Otherwise, I…… can’t, believe you……]

[Subaru: Emilia]

[Emilia: If you’d kept your promise and stayed with me until morning! Then I would’ve definitely believed you! I would’ve believed you, and entrusted everything to you! But you broke your promise…… and so I, can’t anymore…… whether it’s you or Puck, you both left me behind……]

Grimacing, Emilia stuck her fingers into her silver hair and lowered her face.
The heat of her fervour shifted and changed directions as Emilia tightly grasped herself,

[Emilia: Now that Puck is gone, these scenes have been going through my head. ……They’re in my head, scenes I’ve never seen before, conversations I don’t remember, they just keep flowing and flowing……]

[Subaru: ――――]

[Emilia: I used to think I remember everything, but these are memories I never knew existed…… yet, they really are my memories…… and every time I remember, whenever something that’s meant to be there that I’ve forgotten re-emerges, I get so afraid……]

These memories Emilia spoke of―― which Puck had sacrificed his bond with her to unseal, were all the genuine memories which she had once tried to forget.
When her contract with Puck was terminated, the uncorked memories began to overflow, flooding Emilia’s interior with her true recollections.

But this dramatic shift could transform her very being.

[Emilia: I finally realized that I’ve been leaning on Puck while running away from all sorts of things…… I’m certain that Puck left me in order to tell me this. But, I’m scared. I’m scared. Puck’s gone, and my real memories are coming out…… and I, I feel like I’m steadily losing myself]

[Subaru: ――――]

[Emilia: Once all the memories come back…… I know I won’t be the same me anymore. My present self is built upon memories that aren’t my real memories…… but, once I remember where I really started…… I know that this me who’s come all this way is going to disappear……]

All of Emilia’s resolve and determination had false memories as their basis.
And so, once she regains her true memories, once her origin changes form, just what will happen to Emilia’s present resolve, and to the path she has walked thus far?

{――What’s important isn’t the beginning or the middle, it’s the end}

[Subaru: ――――]

Suddenly, a voice echoed through Subaru’s mind.
This familiar yet distant voice felt so incredibly close to Subaru, though it belonged to someone who he would likely never see again.
At the very end of the end of their parting, she gave him these words as his homework.

Ahh, that’s right―― he thought.

No matter how it began, regardless of which path you took, until you reach the end of the end of the end, who has the right to say whether or not it’d all been a mistake?

[Subaru: No matter what you remember, nothing will change. I love you. And I’ll always love you]

[Emilia: ――hk. I don’t, believe you. This me, you say you love…… o-once she’s gone, will you, still……]

[Subaru: I’ll say this now. No matter what happens, you’re not going anywhere. And I’ll continue to love you]

[Emilia: ……You’re a liar. How do you, expect me to…… believe you……]

[Subaru: ――Then, I’ll make you believe]

With her voice trembling and her eyes wavering, Emilia tried to reject Subaru.
His words could not reach her. And his appeals could not convince her. In that case, the only way left to convey his feelings was through action.
And so,

[Emilia: sub……]

[Subaru: If you don’t want it, dodge]

Within breathing distance―― or rather, so close that not even their breaths could stand between them――
Subaru reached for Emilia’s shoulder, and drew his face closer. Watching Subaru’s approach, confusion rose in Emilia’s eyes as her body tensed.

For one second, he waited.
If she was going to push him away, this was the moment.

[Emilia: ――――]

But Emilia closed her eyes.
Whether it was resignation, or the result of hesitation, Subaru couldn’t tell.

[Subaru: ――Mmh]
[Emilia: ――――ngh]

Their breathing intertwined, Emilia held her breath, Subaru’s brows furrowed in pain.
A quiet noise came from the force of their teeth striking together. It started with that slight, aching pain, but it soon vanished from even the crevices of their minds, drowned out by the intensity of that heat.

Soft lips. A kiss, barely more than a touch.

For Emilia, it was her first, and for Subaru, it was his second time kissing her.
Unlike the first time, filled with the cold taste of “Death”. This second kiss was of the burning taste of “Life”.

[――a]

With neither being the first to move, their lips parted.

They drew their faces away from each other, both forgetting to breathe as they gazed at the other.
Flushed cheeks. Watery eyes. The person reflected within Emilia’s irises looked utterly entranced.
That pathetic expression made Subaru return to his senses first, and, while finally remembering to breathe,

[Subaru: …I love you]

[Emilia: ――――]

[Subaru: No matter what useless side of you I see, and no matter what kinds of fights we get into, I’ll never stop loving you, Emilia. That won’t change no matter what―― so I’ll always believe in you. And if you ask me why, it’s…]

[Emilia: Because, you love me……]

Finishing the end of Subaru’s sentence as if in a daze, Emilia touched her lips. Tracing her fingers over them, as if confirming the lingering tenderness of their touch, tears welled in her eyes.
A droplet travelled down her fair-white cheek, glimmering like a drop of the moon.

[Subaru: It’s only natural that you’d be anxious when unknown memories start flowing back. And I understand being scared when it feels like you’re becoming someone you don’t know. But that doesn’t mean the path you’ve walked will vanish, or that your feelings will change]

[Emilia: How could you…… say this like you’re sure……?]

[Subaru: What’s important isn’t the beginning. It’s the end. ――A woman I respect above all the world told me that]

His mother may be the most air-headed person in the world, but somehow, she still managed to teach him his single most important lesson in that world.
Though he couldn’t be sure if he understands it correctly, he nevertheless intends to try.
Because there is a girl right in front of him, with whom he wishes to figure this out together.

Watching Emilia stand there, weighed by anxiety, Subaru gave her a lighthearted shrug.
As if to tell her that it’s no big deal, and to blast her worries away.

[Subaru: It’s alright, Emilia. No matter what you remember, I’ll be on your side. Go ahead and recall every memory you’ve forgotten. And if you’re still afraid, then go find it]

[Emilia: Find…… find what……?]

[Subaru: Just like how my feelings for you allow me to charge ahead without a fear in the world, you should find your most cherished feeling that’ll let you sprint forward without worrying about anything going on around you]

Emilia never hesitated to expend herself for another’s sake.
The way she placed others before herself was noble and beautiful, and Subaru loved it to no end, but――

――The words “For another’s sake” is horrifically kind, and horrifically sad.
Because the feelings one holds towards an unknown stranger could surely never rival the feelings one held for someone familiar and close.

[Subaru: I’m kinda sorta hoping that cherished feeling would be directed towards me, though]

[Emilia: My…… cherished feeling……]

Perhaps she wasn’t listening to Subaru, for Emilia raised her hand to her chest and lowered her eyes. Her fingers reached for where Puck’s crystal would have been.
With their bond shattered, there was nothing for her to touch. Her fingertips scraped at empty air. But Emilia clenched her hand firm,

[Emilia: Once I’ve recovered all of my memories…… maybe it’ll be there, my cherished feeling]

[Subaru: Yeah. It’ll be there. Your reason to keep walking]

[Emilia: ――Mn]

Her expression was not exactly doubtful, nor was it entirely one of acceptance.
After seeing Emilia give a slight nod, Subaru closed his eyes as he turned his face up to the ceiling.

The words that had once uplifted him now felt even more powerful than before.
As though it had been kinder, stricter, and stronger words that saved him.

――But will he really become Emilia’s strength?

[Subaru: ――――]

It’d be way too lame to ask that now.
He sighed, and the instant he let go of his strength, the nausea he’d forgotten about jolted him to his core. Instinctively putting his hand to the wall, he barely managed to keep himself from puking.

[Emilia: Subaru?]

[Subaru: It’s nothing…… or, as much as I wanna man up and say that, it’s not nothing. I’m pretty bad right now. Anyway, if you wanna keep arguing or fighting, we could pick it up once we’re outside]

[Emilia: Geez…… that’s not what I want at all]

In front of the pale-faced Subaru, Emilia’s lips formed into a faint smile.
But she was too weak to resume her usual determined facade. She hasn’t yet reached a clear-cut answer. And her anxiety wasn’t fully dispelled.

With his hand against the wall, Subaru started walking towards the Tomb’s exit.
Behind Subaru’s unsteady steps, Emilia reached out her hand, but hesitated, indecisive about whether to touch him. The meeting of their lips just now must’ve affected her considerably.
Just thinking back on it made Subaru’s face flush red-hot at how brazen he had been.

But all those sentiments would have to be left behind for now.

[Subaru: ――――]

In order to show her that he is on her side, and is willing to do anything for her――
In order to fulfill the role that he had taken upon himself: to protect her, and to protect all his feelings for her――

[Subaru: I’ll have to see this through to the end]

They came out of the Tomb.
Bright sunlight greeted them as they stepped from the darkness.
And,

[Subaru: ――Yo, sorry to keep you waiting]

[???: Tch]

The person clicked his tongue in irritation as Subaru gave him a wave.

 

[???: ――I wasn’t waitin’]

 

 

――With his entire body drenched in blood, Garfiel stood there, full of hostility.

 

 

-=Chapter 110 End=-

 

 

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Next Chapter: https://translationchicken.com/2019/03/22/rezero-arc-4-chapter-111-garfiels-barrier-part-1-2/

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This is one of the most important chapters of this Arc, and it absolutely needed to be perfect.

I originally wanted to split it into two parts but I realized halfway that it would dilute the emotional impact too much if I did, so this had to be a whole chapter release.

I’ve been sick with the flu for over a week and trying to finish this chapter was literally killing me… I think I’ve done all I can now, but I’ll probably re-read it again when I wake up tomorrow.

I’m sorry it took this long, I hope it was worth the wait ❤
And please let me know if you see any typos!

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Chapter 111 Live Draft:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/re-zero-arc-4-24785186

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Next Chapter: https://translationchicken.com/2019/03/22/rezero-arc-4-chapter-111-garfiels-barrier-part-1-2/

 

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    1. You beautiful translator you, this was done perfectly. All the emotion was captured here. Rest hard…you’ve more than earned it. Thanks as always.
      -version15

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  1. Thank you for the new chapter and get well soon!

    Typo:
    “Her expression was not exactly doubtful, but nor was it entirely one of acceptance.
    After seeing Emilia give a slight nod, Subaru closed his eyes as he turned [[[[[[hsi]]]]]] face up to the ceiling.”

    Good call on releasing the whole chapter, it was much more impactful!

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        1. I would like to say “Thank you so much” for your hard work chicken. You’ve done one of the most outstanding art work here. I am looking forward to the next chapter, 111.
          Thanks again.

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  2. Woahh Chicken is this your valentine’s gift to us? The lovers quarrel between Subaru & Emilia? Haha simply amazing!! 😍
    This is certainly top 3 of the most important scene on this Arc (the other being Subaru encounter with Satella and his ‘blazing’ argument with a certain person later), and you’ve done a perfect job translating this! Really, thank you very much! And get well soon~

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  3. “accurately divine her feelings.” – “divine” should be “define” or “figure out” or something similar

    “indecipherable emotion.” – “emotion” should be plural. If it’s meant to be singular then “some” earlier in the sentence should be “a”

    “Subaru, for the” – I try to avoid mentioning these unless they’re super out of place, the comma should be alt+F4’d

    “Emilia asked.” – missing “this question”

    “now that he’s learned” – should be changed to “after learning”

    “was something” – “was” should be “were” as “emotions” was plural

    “insides of chest.” – missing a “his”, at the risk of being redundant in my correction

    “just all talk” – “just” and “all” should be swapped

    “had Subaru” – this specific”had” should be “has”

    “sake” is” – “is” should be “are”

    “but nor” – “but” should be ctr+alt+dlt’d

    “hsi” – again I’m being redundant in my correction but should be “his”

    “formed into” – “into shouldn’t be here. If this was “morphed into” then the word “into” would be neccessary, but it’s not in the current context

    That’s everything! This chapter was HUGE and it took me so long to read but it was AMAZING

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  4. This was absolutely AMAZING, Chicken-sama. Absolutely worth the wait, and I love that you did it in one go. It was so jam-packed with feelings! You made it absolutely perfect! Keep being amazing!

    I hope you recover soon!!!

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  5. So you’re back, and you brought…THIS. Definitely worth the wait.
    Good health to you~~~
    I actually thought the previous chapter note had something to do with the gap.

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  6. How could I have allowed my body to rest while you, chicken sama, with such diligence were working on releasing this chapter…
    SLOTHFUL, this is an unacceptable answer to the love that you have shown us.

    Thank you Chiken, may our love reach you.

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  7. I’m gonna be blunt….I absolutely loved this chapter 😁. Not counting the other (seeming) climaxes prior to this (and those still to come), this truly felt like the confrontation that the Arc was building towards for a while. I have to say Tappei is REALLY GOOD at writing conversations that feel natural and still have meaning. Thank you Chicken for translating this wonderful chapter. We’re over one of the last humps in Arc 4 and I can’t wait for the trilling chapters to come.

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  8. First off echoing everyone’s semtiments, I’m to seeyou8n good health.

    Second thank you for doing justice to one of best chapters in the arc. Above everything in Re:Zero, it scenes like these that make respect Tappei as writer the most. It is what makes his characters endearing, world real even among all fantastical elements and mysteries. It is truly among one of my fav series of recent times. 🙂

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  9. Great chapter Chicken. I did notice a simple mistake, in this sentence “His mother may be the most air-headed person in the world, but somehow, she still managed to teach him [his] single most important lesson in that world.” the “his” should be “this”. The other caught the others I noticed. Thanks for always translating and thinking about the reader.

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  10. Chicken, I love you. I just love you and all your hard work. This chapter was a masterpiece, and it was definitely worth the long wait. Hope you’re better ! Keep up the awesome work, we’ll always be waiting !

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  11. When I eat chicken these past weeks, I’ve been always wondering if chicken-sama is okay.

    But thank you so much for your hardwork chicken-sama and glad you are better now!!
    Definitely worth the wait!! Such a great chapter.

    And the way emilia and subaru fought at earlier part is kinda funny lol!

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  12. When I eat chicken these past weeks. I’ve been wondering if chicken-sama is okay.

    But glad that you are feeling better now and thanks for another great chapter.
    Definitely worth the wait!!

    And the way emilia and subaru fought at the earlier part is kinda funny lol!!

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    1. That extermely random comment. Is Rem and Wilhelm confessing their love to their precious persons supposed to be creepy too?

      Subaru doesn’t know a thing about the WoE beyond the fact it is obessed murder machine the killed his friends and nealy destoryed the world the past. Satella herself may be different, but he’s not give his heart to someone he doesn’t know.

      Basically the two situations have nothing to do with each other, espeically because nobody acts like Yandere like WoE does as it deovurs everyone in her of Subaru.

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      1. kinda have to read the ‘dona if’ on contracting and consider that the ‘fake’ memories would be much much easier to get over. the fact she was perfectly fine after seeing sub break down on a few failed loops >this one too actually. but yeah when the real memories are coming back i understand that. i mean what she originally planned on doing. not exactly a bad thing wanting to depend on others its another to berate someone for trying to do it. she basically said she wanted sub to give up on her and [Emilia: If you’d kept your promise and stayed with me until morning! Then I would’ve definitely believed you! I would’ve believed you, and entrusted everything to you! <she meant literally everything n not just trusting him but in the dona if he basically became another foster parent in telling everything to do and doing everything for her. at first i too thought she was 'mind broken' but what if that was not the case idk also makes sense

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        1. >kinda have to read the ‘dona if’ on contracting and consider that the ‘fake’ memories would be much much easier to get over. the fact she was perfectly fine after seeing sub break down on a few failed loops

          I’m not sure what your talking about? It is made a point the IF that Emilia now a literally unstable person who suffers mental shocks and losses control over herself over anything not Subaru related. She no longer has ambition or thinks about herself, just Subaru. That not how she is main story nor is the she girl Subaru fell in love with. She could not overcpme her past in that route becasue the seal is still effect so just broken person.

          >this one too actually. but yeah when the real memories are coming back i understand that. i mean what she originally planned on doing. not exactly a bad thing wanting to depend on others its another to berate someone for trying to do it

          She never planned on doing that at all. There no point the story where thought. Subaru even points out that Emilia came to Tomb because she is still partially thinking about others and forcing herself to do the trials no matter what mental condition she is in.

          > she basically said she wanted sub to give up on her and [Emilia: If you’d kept your promise and stayed with me until morning! Then I would’ve definitely believed you! I would’ve believed you, and entrusted everything to you! at first i too thought she was ‘mind broken’ but what if that was not the case idk also makes sense

          >literally everything n not just trusting him but in the dona if he basically became another foster parent in

          He’s not though. Here the thing, Puck never tells her what to do. That goes against his very nature which was support Emilia in whatever she decided to do. Participating in royal selection, joining up with Roswaal, saving Subaru etc, those were all her decisions. His job a foster parent simply to guide her when she at loss on how to accomplish them and give her help the occasion. Like a parent.

          Subaru in the Echidna IF doesn’t do this because Emilia herself too messed up to think about anything anymore. Her failures in trials destroyed her confidence in herself and has made her given up on life. She is just his tool and doll there. She doing the royals selection becasue it make him happy not for her homeland.

          She not mind broken mainstory unless she literally spends days in inside the trials reliving her fake past over and over again. Experiencing the same trauma until breaks her. This only happens when she hears bad stuff happening to Subaru and she forces herself to brute them to save him. That has been driving Subaru’s anguish for the better part of this arc.

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          1. first loop in sanctaury she decided to let sub do the trails after he gave up on her. kept mentioning how she had no tears so either she is really bad at crying or faking. puck designed those memories to be easier to deal with then her real ones so one can figure reliving them must not be that horrible. logically speaking. she is mentally a child so she cant deal with it esp when she has been spoiled to death in her childhood and later with sub n puck. yes she wanted to try and not put more stress on sub but still in the end wanted him to do it for her. which is both sweet n sad. also i doubt dona really cares if the memories are real or fake just as long as one gets over it and moves on. she both wants to do things on her own but also wants to someone reliable to depend on. if sub did not get hurt in helping her she would not be berating him to death and herself for letting him do it. like puck said she is mentally weak physically strong while sub is mentally strong and physically weak.

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          2. Except that didn’t happen. When Subaru told her he had the qualifications he used that compete with her to see who could finish the trials first to raise her morale. He never attempts the trials again while Emilia continues to do so without success for 3 days. Instead finding ways on giving Emilia more time to do such as negotiating the villagers release and to relieve pressure on her. Emilia never said anything about leaving anything to Subaru agreeing with him take villagers away from the sanctuary. I also don’t what you mean because everything time she failed the trials she was emotional wreck and woke up screaming at some points, Ch 22 (weakness) was all about this. They were extremely bad for her

            And faking what? Why anyone do this in the first or when has Emilia ever been the type to do so??? And Puck had nothing to do with her fake memories to begin with, they had already existed before he met her. Puck only sealed most of them. Emilia also known to bad at lying!

            Regardless of you mentality everyone has problems dealing with traumatic pain. Subaru and Rem also that why later acts like a slave for her sister. Furthermore Emilia wasn’t spoiled death, the elven community was so poor they couldn’t afford clothes and had to take hand me downs. Emilia spent part of her life locked in a room with old things. She never given what she wanted or lived in a life luxury.

            >yes she wanted to try and not put more stress on sub but still in the end wanted him to do it for her. which is both sweet n sad

            Okay please read Ch 94 which takes place from Emilia’s POV that tells exactly what she thinking. Even before that she rejected Subaru offer of help. Emilia is someone who overburdens herself not the opposite as not to trouble others at the expense of herself. She stubborn like that.

            >also i doubt dona really cares if the memories are real or fake just as long as one gets over it and moves on.

            Correct, but this has nothing to do with what we are talking about. Dona cannot control what memories a person has beyond Emilia can challenge the trials as many times as she wishes.

            >she both wants to do things on her own but also wants to someone reliable to depend on.

            That is why Subaru is frustrated at her. He wants her to trust him even if her caution is warrant because he hates seeing her suffer like this. He wants to believe in his love for her to give him a chance.

            >if sub did not get hurt in helping her she would not be berating him to death and herself for letting him do it.

            She only berating herself things that aren’t her fault and that is other choices. Subaru does the same thing

            > like puck said she is mentally weak physically strong while sub is mentally strong and physically weak.

            Puck didn’t say that. In fact he says Emilia mostly strong mental and physically. It’s her heart in other words emotions where she weak.That from suffering a near decade of discrimination and loss of her home.

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  13. I’ve been following your work for a long while and the series has yet to disappoint, but this chapter was absolutely phenomenal. And I can only say that due to the efforts of an equally phenomenal translator.

    Honestly was so tense to see how Subaru would handle this…but in hindsight, he just had to be himself, at 100%. Was smiling throughout their lovers’ quarrel. Oh man. Definitely the highlight of my week. Stay healthy and cool!

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  14. I feel like they did not solve anything! Sub still broke her trust. I hope what he did was worth it ( I know it will be, but it’s frustrating now).

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    1. dude she was ‘testing’ him like what if he had to go to the bath room or had to sleep etc that was pure bullshit. her lie about trying her best to beat the trail is a far far bigger lie idk thats just me. o n it is super cheesy

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      1. Her most important person(Puck) just abandoned her. She wasn’t okay. Ofc, she was suspicious. I don’t even know how can you blame her for being doubtful like that in the situation like that. She was backstabbed by Puck, so she is afraid of being backstabbed again. That’s only natural.
        “her lie about trying her best to beat the trail ” cmon, it seems like you just like to make a false assumptions, or you are just trying to discredit Emilia for whatever reason.

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  15. iv been waiting for this part to be properly done for over a year so worth the wait. >n some were whining about a month< booked the pg. one of the best moments in this ark and trust me there are more to come. pretty much everything the 'emelia haters' /critics/ are shown here except for the part that in the very beginning it was her fault n others times that 'death traps' could even been laid in the first place. no character development at all then bam like the Cambrian explosion life evolved. such a great chapter. cant wait for BEAKO TIME…seriously need more BEAKO

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    1. first arc: running off alone in the capital getting her pendant stolen and instead of getting rams helps goes to the most dangerous place….suicidal much. mansion loop could have helped but pretends she could not even tho in this ark we learn she can ‘SILENCE’ puck meaning she really wasnt trying too. next loop couldn’t stand sub hurting himself for her sake so runs back to the mansion leaving sub to do all the work in getting the alliance going which i cant help but feel that it should have been impossible without emelia n roshit being there. i would argue again should have helped with the witch cultist att >>SHE HAS ONE OF THE STRONGEST SPIRITS<< now we learn that she was 'all talk' and basically wanted to leave it all up to sub in the first place. she has been pretending this entire time to be /giving it her all/. good grief id would have been fine with it if she admitted this instead of making sub feel like shit every-time she sat back then complain her ass off when he got hurt. shit tier character. ok yes she has a horrible past but so does almost every character in re zero. thats no excuse for bad behavior. i am so glade emelia is finally starting to be a great character that n i hope there is no more back stabbing

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      1. This chapter was about none of that so I have no idea what talking about.

        In arc 1first ofg she didn’t run off alone Ram got separate from her because she was distracted. Second Felt stole her badge out of her pocket, it was explained why could not get help from any of the authorites to find her because she is an half-elf. She did accept help from Subaru because was unconnected with the selection. The story even
        points out thathe slowed her down could have found loot cellar without him much faster which she did.

        The stuff you said about Puck absolutely has nothing to do with anything. The alliance makeshift one about an incident that going to happen in future that literally nobody but Subaru knew about because he RBD. It wouldn’t have been made otherwise.

        She hadn’t pretending to give it he all, Puck liteally says this as does Subaru. Emilia literally could not pass the trial because all ahe saw were fake memories.

        She neverr left anything to Subaru or lied to him, no really what in hell are you talking about? This chapter was about her resolve getting shakened by her returning memories she never knew she had!

        You can rake character assassination elsewhere.

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        1. no she ran off ram did not look for her b/c that was an order from roshit to wait. also love how you mention not getting help from others tho also the other candidates have guards no matter what she should know she would be targeted . true anyone other then elsa she would have been fine.2. ok made it harder still could have helped kinda wonder how a follower can be a decent leader but ok. fake or not still didnt want to pass. wanted to make sub give up on her. sub already said that part kinda dont want to copy/paste.

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          1. >no she ran off ram did not look for her b/c that was an order from roshit to wait.

            That still has nothing to do with her actions themselves. Roswaal manipulated Subaru and Rem too but nobody blames them for what happened. Emilia didn’t have her badge out in open but Felt still knew where it was because someone told so there literally nothing she could have done about that.

            >also love how you mention not getting help from others tho also the other candidates have guards no matter what she should know she would be targeted.

            The other candidates are not half-elves. Like that massive huge deal in the story led Emilia being barred, denied and losing things. Ram was the only person accompanying her and just as you said Ram intentionally separated herself. So she had no choice to just rely on herself. This reason directly stated in the story. It’s not an issue, your just making it one.

            >fake or not still didnt want to pass. wanted to make sub give up on her.

            There is no point Subaru ever wanted to give up on her. He doesn’t blame her for anything you said because none of it was her fault. She is literally victim who mining he own business. Nobody should have known she was candidate back then either. If anything he’s always getting made himself becasue he so weak Emilia keeps taking considerations not burden him when he doesn’t mind at all. He wants to put in the effort for her and help Emilia achieve her dreams.

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          2. fun fact iron maw that hoodie she was wearing in the capital has a special effect that hides ones identity and felt was not the only thief targeting her except when the others got close to her they got confused and waked off aimlessly. ram stayed in one place talking to al <yes the other Japanese guy was there flirting with her lamo. so if emelia a 'HALF ELF' like you said did not run off knowingly she would be targeted then it would have been alot harder for her pendant to be stolen. thats just bad judgement to begin with thats laughable you mention that shit.

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  16. Thank you for the chapter!
    I don’t know if you’ve got anything special planned for Valentine’s Day, but I hope you have a wonderful day ❤

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    1. Alright 🐔, this has got to be the most impactful chapter thus far. Makes me jealous as a single person who has a crush who is basically out of his league 😥 Regardless of my personal view, thank you for translating this chapter despite basically dying! ❤

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      1. “emelia just admitted to just being all talk”
        First, it is Emilia not eMeLia
        Second, every character must realise their problems before having their developments

        “then planning on forcing everyone else to do everything for her?”
        Not sure what are you saying here since Subaru is the only one knowing the truth here. Have you read everything properly?
        I’m not saying that Emilia or Rem is better. Just saying your reasons make no sense at all.

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        1. idk whether she knew the truth or not on why it was important not to stay in sanctuary forever but seems like to me she was in no hurry to pass the trails i mean she was being spoiled by sub and the center of attention. i mean wasnt that garfs main issue that sub seemed to be in a hurry for no reason? kinda late on developments real slow

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      2. tbh I never know what is the problem with Emilia haters since their reasons are always like these. Both Emilia and Rem is great, so don’t just hate Emilia because Subaru said “I Love Emilia”

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      3. Except Emilia didn’t admit anything nor said anything forcing others on her behalf. Why in world she a half-elf who had hidden herself from people for years and refused Subaru assistance in getting involved with her do that?

        Emilia’s could not pass the trials which had been attempting until broke her mind the memories were not because she was faking it. Puck removed the seal she was in shock she other memories she didn’t know about and what meant for her present identity.

        The only reason she wasn’t fully asleep was because she wanted to see if Subaru would kerp his promise because he had broken them with her before. So what is this BS?

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        1. first loop in sanctuary and dona if. she was ok with things. sure fake puck memories would be terrifying sure. how was she hidden in the capital running around alone with puck? she didnt want subs help b/c he was getting hurt over her when he wasnt she was fine also perfectly fine letting roshit do stuff. lamo dude she already knew sub would DIE for her sake he is going above and beyond what she wanted. the ‘promise’ is just her wanting to be able to control him more thats it to do her bidding without questions

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        2. That guy is just delusional. It seems like he is trying way too hard to discredit Emilia, as a character. He tends intentionally to create ridiculous false assumptions. Most of Rem’s fans are just blindly biased, no fucking joke. It could be funny, if wouldn’t be so sad.

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    1. Not sure in which way this chapter shows that Emilia is better than Rem.

      To me it seems that this chapter is kinda a remake/reference to episode 18 with Emilia taking Subarus part (trying to run away/giving up) and Subaru taking Rem’s part (trying to build the person up/giving them strength while confessing)

      So, this chapter is more like Subarus big moment rather than Emilia’s.

      Emilia did not even have that “I’m gonna become your hero” moment in this conversation… (Which was a huge turning point for Subaru back then)

      No hate against Emilia, but THIS chapter does not reflect any superiority towards Rem.

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  17. OMG! That was amazing and its even more awsome that we get to read their “first kiss” on Valentines day. Its so refreashing to final see Subaru admit that Emilia isn’t this perfect princess but he loves her any way. I’m hoping, in time, that Emilia will come to love Subaru in the same way.

    Also, am I the only who noticed just how crual it is that Rem’s love for Subaru is inspiring his love for Emilia. Brutal yet beautiful all at the same time (re zero in a nutshell).

    THANK YOU! SO SO MUCH CHICKEN! You definatly made this chapter worth the wait. Your hard work is something to be admired. I hope you feel better

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  18. Thank you chicken for another amazing translation, this is probably my third or fourth favorite chapter so far out of all of them, and you got it dropped for Valentine’s Day

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  19. Chicken-SAMA!!!!!!!!! I’ll be your Subaru-nimous this time and i will say to you that I LOVE YOU!!!!! ahahahahaha Thanks for this awesome chapter!!!!

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  20. after all said and done, how about Rem ? Emilia so stubborn. Every response from her, im also trying to think of my own reply to her. Thinking about the next argument. Its traumatizing and tiresome to deal with her over and over again. Tough love Subaru.

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    1. Better to be stubborn than somebody killing for something that was no fault of you own. Rem is not free form causing him issues. Subaru has caused Emilia plenty of problems with his stubbornness so like he said he can’t talk either.

      And if you gonna runaway from that than you should not interact with anyone ever. Nobody is obligated to cater to anybody. Besides Emilia has never caused Subaru any trauma most problems between them has been his fault more than her. The point of this chapter wasn’t to change that fact but strengthen her resolve which been weaken with Puck disappearance whom was emotional pillar for her.

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      1. So yes she has her flaws but that is good and response should be giving her the same kind if understanding and acceptance as one would give Rem unless the entire story nothing but stupid waifu contest to you.

        These are complex characters with their own feelings, world views, anxieties and loves not trophies or NPCs Subaru is here to pick up.

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    2. you have to consider the fact Emilia is mentally a child she does not understand subs love for her. even tho he as made it painfully obvious even asking her out on a date etc. rem thought he was a witch cultist but the moment she realized there was no way he was she completely stopped being a psychopathic killer to him.

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  21. Do anyone recall Arc 4 chapter 78 s
    [Satella: I, love you. ――Because you gave me light. It was you who took me by the hand, and showed me the world outside. In the nights when I was lonely and afraid, you held my hand. And when I was all alone, you kissed me on the lips and told me that I wasn’t. You’ve given me so, so much. ……That’s why, I love you. Because you… you gave me everything]

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  22. We’ve got Subaru’s restart in Arc 3, now we’ve got Emilia’s restart. Though while powerful, it’s not as good as Subaru’s meeting with his parents IMO

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    1. Just before reaching the end, Subaru’s denouncements ceased.
      Emilia looked up at Subaru. Rising in her eyes was an emotion which only Subaru would understand.

      ――For it was the same emotion that Subaru had once felt himself.

      [Subaru: I love you. ――Emilia]

      Using the same words which he had been unable to escape from, Subaru blocked off Emilia’s escape.

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  23. end will be like:
    subaru gets back in his world leaving emilia behind and then emilia becomes satella and then the story goes on like going back in time to subaru bringing the past subaru to her world and giving him her strength like those time powers and helping him overcome his weaknesses and support him and the loop will go on.

    b’coz::Do anyone recall Arc 4 chapter 78 s

    [Satella: I, love you. ――Because you gave me light. It was you who took me by the hand, and showed me the world outside. In the nights when I was lonely and afraid, you held my hand. And when I was all alone, you kissed me on the lips and told me that I wasn’t. You’ve given me so, so much. ……That’s why, I love you. Because you… you gave me everything]

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  24. [Satella: I, love you. ――Because you gave me light. It was you who took me by the hand, and showed me the world outside. In the nights when I was lonely and afraid, you held my hand. And when I was all alone, you kissed me on the lips and told me that I wasn’t. You’ve given me so, so much. ……That’s why, I love you. Because you… you gave me everything]

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    1. who knows i still have a feeling she is something dona created. really only proof i have is that as far as i know this ‘good satella’ only appears once and it just so happens to be in the dream world. maybe a ‘failed loop’ future emilia ie a ‘time line remnant’ or something like that. this series involves time travel, parallel worlds and parallel timelines i feel like anything is possible.

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    1. you may change your mind when emillia matures more and in my opinion finally starts acting like the heroine. i mean lol we all did with rem/ram in the beginning they were down right horrible characters but now we love em. try searching remomwater there some really great stories.

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      1. Being a heroine is not an “act” you are or your not and Emilia is plenty mature if your saying Subaru and the twins too. She doesn’t embarrass herself in for important people or kill some one based on flimsy evidence and nearly reckless get themselves killed.

        All 3 have had their immature moments so please don’t pretend none of them don’t have their flaws. It is pretty clear to me you have rather twisted one-sided view of Emilia.

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        1. lol no i have criticized them all. that does not mean i /hate/ them or that i wont change my mind later. Emilia is immature in her own way she is overly dependent on others i mean have you read her contract with puck there is not a shred of maturity in it. she cant deal with anyone lying, getting hurt, no idea on love etc. my main complaint with her is that she is a follower she has 0 leadership qualities whatsoever and i do not think you can ‘study’ that into someone as docile as she is. or other skills at this point she is basically just a ‘cute sweet girl’ which is fine if she is in middle school not when peoples lives may literally depend on her. again mabeast and cultist incident could have helped but did not have the ‘balls’ to stand up and do what she thought was right. would not have bothered me as much if she didnt berate sub to death over it. i do get its kinda subs fault she was not in the fights but again he is just a weak stranger at that point and the maids boss her around. just a little bit more courage and she will be great i have high hopes for her

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          1. Same can be said for subo. He’s weak,crass,vulgur,cringy and sometimes even a borderline scumbag. He’s really not a guy fit to be someone’s knight. Yet throughout the series we see him maturing alongside Emilia. They both using their love and relying on each other to improve themselves as human beings. And trusting each other bit by bit. That’s what makes this series so different from your standard isekai or anime.

            They are not a perfect couple. I agree but they both try their best to be and in my opinion that is what makes re zero truly beautiful. Two people with different backgrounds trying their best to fit in with one another and identifying themselves and improving themselves for the sake of one another as well as themselves.

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          2. My you have only criticized Emilia and even then it has not been about right things, but issues you that were not stated or blamed on her. You either twist facts or point out irrelvent. None of critizens of Roswaal territory ever depended to help anything to begin with and she helped anyway. Even Subaru how often he’s indebted to or how gone off bat litreally strangers that hate out of racism. So please throw misinformation at me. You are not describing a character exists in the story but canicurture that could have done things she has uptil now. I don’t care what kind of hopes you have for her when can’t correctly assesses her character.

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          3. Anyway this my last response to you on this since the comment section is getting cluttered and it is clear to me you’re just projecting your own grievances on to her while basically contradicting the story on what she did and didn’t do. Not mention some of what you said is just striaght up lies.

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  25. Same can be said for subo. He’s weak,crass,vulgur,cringy and sometimes even a borderline scumbag. He’s really not a guy fit to be someone’s knight. Yet throughout the series we see him maturing alongside Emilia. They both using their love and relying on each other to improve themselves as human beings. And trusting each other bit by bit. That’s what makes this series so different from your standard isekai or anime.

    They are not a perfect couple. I agree but they both try their best to be and in my opinion that is what makes re zero truly beautiful. Two people with different backgrounds trying their best to fit in with one another and identifying themselves and improving themselves for the sake of one another as well as themselves.

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  26. Just wanted to stop in and say thanks, I started binging everything you had the day after I finished the anime, that was maybe 4 days ago. Looking forward to the rest!

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    1. Official? Yes.
      Canon? Debatible.

      This ia a translation of the web novel not the light novel. The difference between the two is that web novels are usually “rough” drafts or outlines of the story posting online for free in the hopes of getting published. The light novel is the final work after getting published and is usually considered the canonical story as web novels and light novels tend to diverge after a while.

      Hope that helps.

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  27. Sorry I didn’t give an update earlier,

    I was feeling better for a few days, but as soon as I stayed up late one night my throat got reinfected, the migraines came back, and I’m in worse shape than I was before. My head is clearer now, but the coughing is still keeping me from falling asleep.

    This one is another long chapter. I want to finish a couple more pages tonight and release the first half of the chapter as soon as it’s good enough.

    Chapter 112 will be shorter, so hopefully I can get most of it done before the month ends.

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    1. good to hear you are better, Migraines are a pain the butt, suffered from them much when i was a kid, hope the coughing is also soon getting better ❤

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    2. Prioritize getting well my friend! There’s a few things in life that really matter, and taking care of your wellbeing, both in body and mind, rank quite highly.

      The translation work can wait, it isn’t like we are without understanding ❤

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    3. Get some Chloraseptic sore throat spray, A single shot of that will make it much easier to sleep. When I get sick, sore throat spray is the only medicine I take.

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  28. Finally caught up after binge reading for days. And what a beautiful chapter to catch up to.
    Thanks for your hard work chicken-sama

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  29. I put the series on halt ( for nearly 4 months I think ) so I could binge read many chapters …
    and oh boi I could have not fnished on a better chapter. Subaru stating for the first time what he actually sees in Emilia, all her goods and bads, his true feelings so open for both us and Emilia … truly a wonderful and satisfying chapter. I cannot thank you enough Chicken-dono … You earned your rest.

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    1. If you don’t mind the quality drop, there is always other fan translation. At this uncertain pace, I’m not even sure chicken can finish arc 4 during 2019. Let him get the rest he deserves so he can be back to health.

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    2. Go away. We don’t need your kind here. He has a life outside of translating for us for free. And as he said he hasn’t been feeling well.

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  30. I used to watch Anime a lot after I found out about it. Was binge watching many shows as quickly as I could. I was quite happy to see there’s a whole new world of entertainment from it. Then I started slowing down the pace because of real life. It was inevitable that I had grow up and start a proper life, but I still enjoyed watching anime. Its just I don’t have much time I used to have before. I would always tell myself I will watch this new anime, but when the time comes. I rarely do. It’s not the same like before. As if I am slowly losing motivation to watch.

    I believe Chicken is going through the same phase and his drives are not the same as before. We are human afterall, eventually the fire fades and it’s no longer there. We just move on. That’s why we should be there for Chicken. He needs our love and support do he continue doing his hard work and keep the fire going.

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  31. 1. Pat the chicken dry and season with salt and pepper.
    2. Heat the oil over medium-high heat in a large skillet.
    3. Carefully add the chicken to the hot pan and cook for 5 to 7 minutes.
    4. Flip the chicken and cook until it reaches 165°F, 5 to 7 minutes more.
    5. Slice and serve.

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  32. Last I checked, you aren’t required to become a patron to have access to the translations. Also, from what I know, he made the patreon account not for profit but because people wanted a way to support him. If you’re a patron, then by all means, stop supporting if you are dissatisfied. Unless I’m forgetting, he didn’t even ask money from readers anyway.

    Stop demanding for service when you aren’t entitled to it in the first place.

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    1. I totally agree!

      However, I am kinda scared scared that the success won’t be as big as prior, because Rem is out of the picture and she has a pretty big fanbase (including me).

      And it might be possible that they won’t give the 2nd season a chance since she most likely be gone after the first episode.

      I just hope, die-hard remfans will look past it and continue to watch the series regardless.

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      1. may be like me and wont stop reading till she is ok and are planning on murdering tappei if she wont be. il live beako is contracted XD

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        1. Haha yeah.
          I always get hyped when remember is mentioned in a new chapter, getting my hopes up for a clue to her return xD

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      2. This is the main reason the anime ended before the news that rem got forgotten. Basically anime staff screwed big times to force a happy end foe season 1. Anime-only-watcher-rem-fans will sure be angry if they see their beloved waifu only appear 4% screen time from total episode for season 2.

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  33. I remember trying to read this blog back in 2016. I always planned to read the novel but i kept postponing it, this year was filled with shit, good and bad shit. And i can say this was the perfect time to read. It took me at least 3 weeks to binge read all the way to here.
    I appreciate your work and i love you add little updates about your life, it was a good kind of weird to read how things were going for you over the past year, i always wonder what kind of life writers have, and it feels cool knowing there is a person with passions behind this translation.

    I always see people battling for first comment so here i am,being the last!

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      1. I did some research and saw chickens live up to 10+ years so we still have time because Chicken sama started quite recently. We’ll manage to see the end of arc 6 at least

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  34. Man it has been a long time, real life almost finished me off this time.
    Hi chicken, was expecting to enjoy arc5 but i cant find anything new. What happenned?

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    1. No, translation chicken is just kinda sick at the moment. But he is still active as you can see since he is replying to comments from time to time. I am sure that he will continue wants his condition gets better 🙂

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      1. Yeah, sick of translating I guess. He hasn’t had a cold as bad as this even in times where he had awful colds. I honestly feel like that’s a lie, especially when he used to update how he was to us every time, now he takes forever to say anything. I maybe spoiled by his standard behavior from ages ago, but still. If we weren’t doing bad and angrily ranting like this it would be because we moved on and didn’t care about this project anymore.

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        1. Send love, not hate!
          Remember, chicken is translating this for free.
          Do not cry/rant about the next chapter being late.
          Atleast he does release them.
          If he really does not care about the project anymore he would have just told us so. There is no need to make up a story.

          Btw. The original Japanese web novel (arc 6) hasn’t been updated since January 4th and he did not give a statement about it yet. (Most likely working on ova/issekai quartet I suppose)

          Btw. Ranting does not really encourage a person to continue a FREE project if you ask me…

          Actually most people would rather quit when they are spammed with mean comments.

          You should all chill out.

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  35. What about arc 5? Shouldn’t the translation work be divided among several people? Don’t tell me the rest of the team also got sick lol

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    1. As far as I know, Chicken is translating everything by himself. While other people in the community might help at some parts/point out mistakes.

      Or does he have an actual team now?

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  36. Hey Chicken ive been a reader for a long while and you always do an amazing job. Hope you are well. Don’t rush or feel pressured to keep translating if it is becoming too difficult due to sickness or any other reasons. At the end of the day its all just a story anyways and you are more important than a bunch of words. Thanks for all of your hard work thus far it has definitely not gone unappreciated.

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  37. Hey, Chicken. I can’t believe how ungrateful some people are here just because they can hide under the veil of anonymity. Please remember you are doing this for free because you are awesome and have a passion. You aren’t entitled to deliver us anything in any timeframe yet we love you all the same for all the amazing work you’ve done until now.

    I’m glad to at least know your sickness hasn’t taken you from us and that you are still out there fighting on!

    Take your time and best of wishes, just don’t get slapped 😛

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    1. He is doing it for free. Yet is accepting money on patreon and even quit his job to translate full-time. And then you still dare to call his readers ungratefull? If anyone than it is him who is ungrateful, accepting a full months worth of pay without uploading at least a quater of a chapter! You fucking hypocrite. Think before making unbased accusations! Now comes a version that even you schould be able to understand… If he accepts money for his work even if he doesn’ t want it, then he is getting paid.

      P.s. If this comment were to be removed, which is almost certain then fuck censorship and fry that communist-like dictator chicken!

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          1. You can’t just say all that bullshit then say you apologize. Lmao. Next time make sure you’re more informed before you make yourself look like an ass.

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          2. I think you misunderstand was apologizing for saying that he took a whole months worth of money despite not posting anything. I was not apologizing for anything else. I was pretty annoyed that there are poeple going around and calling others ungrateful for just because they don’t treat chicken sama like a saint and because I wad annoyed that a previous comment of mine was censored(removed) which is why I added the last part which seems to have worked since it has yet to be removed. I do not wish for you to share my anger but to at least understand it.

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          3. Oh and please don’t call me uninformed. There are people who try to tell me that he is translating completely for free without recieving any form of monetary compensation at all. Thank you😜

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      1. Just glad to know you’re okay. Don’t pay attention to the ungrateful guys who can only think about themselves and their own convenience. Just know that there are those who actually appreciate you for what you do Chicken-sama. Hope you get well soon. Not just for the translation, but because I care.

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      2. Being sick for a month + is a sign that your body needs rest, so take your time and don’t worry too much .. keep us updated tho, ok? We get worried about you 🙂

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        1. Rest from what? He is translating and not building a castel all on his own. It is more likeley that he caught something on his travels due to not being in his usual environment.

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      3. just take it easy i had a freon/freezer burn type of injury to my hand. the joke was i had mickey mouse hand so i know the troubles. hope you have someone to take care of you.

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  38. Me before checking the comments:
    “Did chicken get eaten as a late late Christmas dinner?”
    Me after checking them:
    “Damn, he was sick for a month. I hope he’s ok”

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  39. (Speaking with a voice full of kindness)

    Chicken-sama I want to thank you for all of the incredible and impeccable translations that you have provided for all of us.

    But please if you’re not completely well in a few days go see a doctor and inform us of the results, we worry about you.

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  40. 1. Pat the chicken dry and season with salt and pepper.
    2. Heat the oil over medium-high heat in a large skillet.
    3. Carefully add the chicken to the hot pan and cook for 5 to 10 minutes.
    4. Flip the chicken and cook until it reaches 165°F, 5 to 10 minutes more.
    5. Slice and serve.

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  41. Why are some people being so ungrateful?
    Chicken-Sama is doing this for free and not demanding any money for it if someone wants to support him then it’s their choice, it is voluntary. Chicken-Sama is not demanding any payment so those paying should not actually expect things against their money.

    In any case, Chicken-Sama please do not pay attention to those people.
    Hope you get well soon!
    Much love to you Chicken-Sama!❤️

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  42. No worries chicken bro.health and family comes first in life for any person and work comes later.
    You have always worked your hardest to make your work on time and we all appreciate your hard work.
    Pls comenack with your fullest and not any sooner as we don’t want to make you suffer more later.
    Just take your time to recover fully and reduce the no. Of chapter release if you can’t give use lots in a month as I can remember getting 4-6 releases every month.just reduce numbers if you can’t do with your current situation.
    Hoping to get new chapters and season 2 for anime too.

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  43. No worries chicken bro.health and family comes first in life for any person and work comes later.
    You have always worked your hardest to make your work on time and we all appreciate your hard work.
    Pls comeback with your fullest and not any sooner as we don’t want to make you suffer more later.
    Just take your time to recover fully and reduce the no. Of chapter release if you can’t give use lots in a month as I can remember getting 4-6 releases every month.just reduce numbers if you can’t do with your current situation.
    Hoping to get new chapters and season 2 for anime too.

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  44. Dear chicken,
    when it takes a long time between posts can you please let us know? it makes us worry about you. and some people start to get ridiculously angry.
    In all Respecc,
    -Wifi

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  45. 1. Pat the chicken dry and season with salt and pepper.
    2. Heat the oil over medium-high heat in a large skillet.
    3. Carefully add the chicken to the hot pan and cook for 7 to 10 minutes.
    4. Flip the chicken and cook until it reaches 165°F, 7 to 10 minutes more.
    5. Slice and serve.

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  46. “I’m sorry, everyone.
    I’ve put Patreon donations on pause while I couldn’t work on the translations.

    I was very sick for the past few weeks.
    Maybe I’ve let the stress of all my life changes get to me, or maybe my body just isn’t used to the new environment.
    I couldn’t sleep, and the same infection just keeps coming back until I couldn’t remember what it feels like to be well anymore.

    I will keep Patreon paused for now until I’m completely myself again.

    -TC ❤

    P.S. I think I've found the love of my life. Thinking of her is part of the reason I couldn't sleep at night"
    From live Google doc ch 111

    Take your time TC. I appreciate all the translation you've done.
    Love

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    1. what? WHAT??? i am confused now. is that a joke? are you chicken? or are you speaking for him? what will be your answer?

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  47. Just keep copying and pasting this whenever anyone asks why there isnt an update:

    “I’m sorry, everyone.
    I’ve put Patreon donations on pause while I couldn’t work on the translations.

    I was very sick for the past few weeks.
    Maybe I’ve let the stress of all my life changes get to me, or maybe my body just isn’t used to the new environment.
    I couldn’t sleep, and the same infection just keeps coming back until I couldn’t remember what it feels like to be well anymore.

    I will keep Patreon paused for now until I’m completely myself again.

    -TC ❤

    P.S. I think I’ve found the love of my life. Thinking of her is part of the reason I couldn’t sleep at night”
    From live Google doc ch 111

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  48. Just paste this whenever anyone asks about updates:

    “I’m sorry, everyone.
    I’ve put Patreon donations on pause while I couldn’t work on the translations.

    I was very sick for the past few weeks.
    Maybe I’ve let the stress of all my life changes get to me, or maybe my body just isn’t used to the new environment.
    I couldn’t sleep, and the same infection just keeps coming back until I couldn’t remember what it feels like to be well anymore.

    I will keep Patreon paused for now until I’m completely myself again.

    -TC ❤

    P.S. I think I’ve found the love of my life. Thinking of her is part of the reason I couldn’t sleep at night”
    From live Google doc ch 111

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    1. you are the kind of people that Chicken deserves not like that other un gratful turds
      he is doing it with no payback why you u complaining!?!??!

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  49. the thot stole him from us … women are snakes .
    People are gonna attack me saying he is happy… but its a frikin thot all women are thot

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  50. I missed you chicken 😭
    Started to worry when you said you were sick and didn’t post any updates. Get well soon, and thank you for the GREAT work. Psst: My birthday is soon and there’s only one thing I want *hint hint* 😉

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  51. Hi! So, uhum, I am kinda new here… *waves awkwardly* I just wanted to thank the Holly Chicken Sama for his wonderful translations… And I wish if I had another way to thank him besides this comment, but heck! I’m afraid I don’t… :/
    So thank you, Chicken Sama! Arigatu Sinsi!

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    1. Not sure if you’re misspelling on purpose to bait people (if u did u got me), but “thank you” is “Arigato” and “Sensei” means teacher/mentor. Just thought I’d clarify in case.

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  52. Those are only half assed translations. The translator even said that it was better to interpret it as a summary instead of a full blown translation

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    1. That’s a common misconception. Summary’s work is a summary in phase 1 and 2, and a full translation in his later work (past chapter 50)

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  54. hello and goodbye mr. translation chicken just wanna say thanks you for all the chapters your translated without you i wouldn’t have kept up with rezero after he anime. And also one more thing i hope you and the girl your dating will end up together best of luck on your future endeavours thanks again :3

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      1. Ehhh, you mean half a part of the chapter. The guy if I’m seeing right, is completely desperate for new content. Honestly it doesn’t surprise that people are moving on from this, espcially since there’s not a drect channel for them to talk with you on how they should be patient for this long while.

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