Re:Zero Arc 4 Chapter 17 [Love Story] (Part 2+3/3)


Translator: TranslationChicken


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[Dad: Here. Cool delicious cola filled with love. Shaken well for extra deliciousness…… or wanted to say that anyway, looks like that wasn’t the right place for it though]

[Subaru: ..….Love-filled scenes don’t come out of vending machines. But thanks]

Receiving the can, and tasting its coolness within his palms, Subaru brought a finger to the pull-tab. Then, with some consideration, he closed his eyes, pointed the can away from anyone present, and pulled the tab with his finger―― when foam and liquid alike came exploding out of the opening with incredible force. Instantly the can in his hand lost a third of its weight.

[Dad: Oyoy, what’s with that, fall for it damnit. I even especially said something about shaking it beforehand to give off the impression that I didn’t shake it when in fact I did for a TWO-STEP-DECEPTION TECHNIQUE ー you know]

[Subaru: I’ve already seen that pattern before, how many years have we known each other, dad. Knowing there’s no way you wouldn’t shake it is also a kind of trust in itself. Oh, hands’re sticky]

Shaking off the overflowing cola that was spilling over his hands, Subaru lightly tilted the cola to his lips. The taste of expanding carbon passed through his mouth, splashing and quenching the thirst in the depths of his throat.
If only the sickness deep within his chest could be washed away as well, but unfortunately, the heaviness still remained there.

[Dad: So, have you settled down?]

[Subaru: ……Hard to say]

Answering the question, Subaru plopped himself down on the bench, and let out a long sigh as he dropped down his shoulders. Standing in front of Subaru, also delivering cola to his lips, Kenichi closed one of his eyes as if he was thinking about something.

After having ran away from the conversation on the embankment, Subaru and his father came to a children’s playground not far from the river. Of course, there was no one here either, nor were there any fathers who suddenly got plunged into long summer vacations languishing on the swings or anything like that.

[Dad: In a way, I feel like even if I ride on the swings now I wouldn’t be able to laugh like I used to. What would you do, Subaru. If dad took a ride on the swings on the way back from the convenience store]

[Subaru: I’d take a photo on my phone and spread it around on Twitter. The Tweet would be “My father has been released from gravity”]

[Dad: Oooh, Twitter. Dad’s on Twitter too you know. I followed and got followed by too many people though, the screen’s all a mess now]

Hearing him say this happily, Subaru sent Kenichi a side glance, before spilling out a languorous sigh as he searched for a topic. Anything, as long as it was something other than what happened on the riverbank―― if he went through that again, his skull would scream.
The shorter and shorter intervals in between the headaches worried him, but just like the way he’d react to his weakness, he could only repress and ignore the feeling as obstinately as he could.

[Subaru: ……It was just buying drinks from a vending machine, what took you so long?]

[Dad: Oh? Nothing really. There was just this highschool girl who skipped school hanging out in front of the vending machine. I gave her a lecture about getting back to school, bought her a drink, swapped email addresses, and sent her off]

[Subaru: I seriously can’t believe how you can get a girl’s email address that fast]

Getting a highschool girl’s email as casually as going to the bathroom and back, he really had no words to describe that ability. Seeing Subaru like this, Kenichi tilted his head, [Really?]

[Dad: Email addresses, they just hand them right over don’t they? The number of highschool girls in my contacts list must be in the 3 digits already]

[Subaru: Even if I add all my contacts together I don’t know if it’ll be in the double digits, and you have 3 digits just from highschool girls, do we have different definitions for the word “digits” here or something…… and dad, you didn’t do anything inappropriate to any of the highschool girls that we’d end up seeing you on the news for, right?]

[Dad: What’re you talking about, you]

Kenichi held up both hands at Subaru’s suspicion, and shrugged up his shoulders to demonstrate his astonishment.

[Dad: It’s not like I’d get any ideas about little brats like highschool girls. The target of my love has already been determined a long time ago, my sensual passions are reserved for my family alone!]

[Subaru: If you categorize it like that I’d be a target too!]

[Dad: ……Well, ’cause I love ya. We only get to live ONE-CHANCE, no?]

[Subaru: God no! What are you even saying!!]

“HA-HAHA”, Kenichi laughed as Subaru blurted this out.
Although the way he laughs was vulgar and hard on the ears, it did not give off a bad feeling. In fact, the same goes for anything Kenichi does.
His behaviors were unconventional, over-the-top, over-dramatic, the kind that makes people want to cringe, but everyone receives them favorably for some reason.

Today, walking with his father for the first time in a while, Subaru got a real sense of this.
Just walking along the street, there had been more people stopping to chat with Kenichi than could be counted on a single hand. No matter where he went, there was someone to share old reminiscences with, and even if he had only just met the other person for the very first time, they would soon get along thick-as-thieves, thanks to his easy-going air. And he didn’t hide any of it, either.

Throbbing, the pain returned to his temples, and Subaru’s breathing grow ragged with every breath.
The intervals in between the scathing aches were no longer shrinking, instead, it was now arriving in fits.
As if the inside of his skull was being jabbed by needles, it was no longer something that could be cured by leaving it alone. But, it was not like the hospital would know what to do with it either.

Even if he didn’t understand the reasons for his pain, he knew its cause.
What else could it be, except the emotions weighing upon his chest, and the choking, suffocating sensation accompanying it.

[Dad: You look ill, Subaru. Want me to piggyback you back to the house?]

[Subaru: I don’t need to be piggybacked, or to go home…… it’d be the same even if I go back]

Rather, if he saw his mother Naoko at home, Subaru’s condition would only grow worse.
He was beginning to understand what that pain was, and what was making it worse. If what he imagined was correct, then when he does return Kenichi and Naoko again, the pain will rise to its extremes. In other words,

[Subaru: Finally, even my own body is giving me a lecture]

Endlessly running away from his guilt, perhaps his body was finally screaming back at him.

The terror of the time spent holding his knees inside his room, staring at the second-hand of the clock. The unrelenting anxiety and the acute, rending aches that lingered even after the threshold had passed.
The sickening malaise, like someone raving loudly in the interior of his skull, screaming accusations at what Subaru had become.
――Who and where did you come from, and what do you know about me, anyway.

[Dad: So um, Subaru. ――Is there, a girl that you like?]

The silent Subaru was suddenly tossed this topic out of the blue.
It was the same question he had been asked in his room, the beginning of that same, unfunny joke. The first time, he had smiled wryly and refuted it, but now, this second time, somehow it was getting on his nerves.
Helped along by the merciless ache in his head, he irritatedly tried to return the same answer when――


Suddenly, from somewhere, he thought he heard a voice like a silver chime, sending his heart astir.

[Subaru: ――?]

Lifting up his face, he searched for the source of the whisper. But even so, his eyes could not find the owner of the voice, and the only other person in the park besides Subaru, was Kenichi, standing in front of him.
Kenichi, seeing Subaru’s sudden movement, also raised his brows in surprise,

[Dad: What is it? You look like you just heard a beautiful girl who’s not there suddenly call your name]

[Subaru: Even if that’s the case, I don’t really have an answer to that…… Just now, did anyone call my name? Dad, you didn’t learn to make your voice sound like beautiful girls while I wasn’t looking, did you?]

[Dad: Your dad knows all kinds of little tricks, but not that one. OK, I’ll start practicing it and show it off next time, I’ll let you hear it in a month or so]

[Subaru: I’m not asking you to learn that…… Gees, what’s with you]

Putting a stop to his father’s words, Subaru looked away, and played back that voice he heard over and over again in his mind. The voice like a silver chime was gentle, yet its sound made Subaru heat up as it struck him, and in that instant, he was allowed to forget about the throbbing pain in his head.

From a place he did not know, came that voice of salvation――like the melodious song of a Goddess, it tended to Subaru’s suffering, and calmed his expression a little,  his breathing grew slightly more even.

[Dad: So uh, my question from before. Is there, a girl you like?]

[Subaru: ……what’s gotten into you lately. What would you do with the answer anyway. Even if there is one and I tell you her name it’s not like you’d know her]

[Dad: You never know, right? There’s a chance I have the email address of the girl you like in my cell phone you know?]

[Subaru: If the girl I have a crush on gave her email address to my dad, even a love of a hundred years will grow cold]

Being tossed with that statement, Kenichi pouted up his lips with a [What’s that supposed to mean]. Watching the gesture that really didn’t suit a middle aged man, Subaru drank up the last of his cola,

[Subaru: You don’t have to be so indirect about it, you know. Why not just ask me directly. ……Like, why don’t I go to school]

[Dad: Well here I am trying to be considerate for once, you really are a kid who can’t read the mood]

Smiling wryly at Subaru’s words, Kenichi continued with [Well,]

[Dad: I did want to ask that, so you’re not wrong about that]

[Subaru: I was thinking too……I shouldn’t be like this]

[Dad: Thinking isn’t always necessary. The things that we think of are only empty ideas, and one way or another, there will always be something we couldn’t think of, something we overlooked]

Seeing Subaru averting his eyes and making that quiet excuse, Kenichi drank up his cola as well, and sat down beside him. The wooden bench creaked, and a gust of wind flew past between them.
And so, they both looked on toward the same direction, neither seeing each other’s faces.

[Dad: I don’t really know what everyone else in the world believes, but I don’t think school is everything. Mostly, because I’m saying that as someone who didn’t really go to school seriously in the first place. I even skipped my own high school graduation ceremony you know, my sister had to bring me my graduation certificate back for me afterwards]

[Subaru: I heard that story so many times. Auntie who’s 2 years younger than dad went to the same school, so when she graduated, they just gave dad’s certificate to her as well. There’re octopuses growing in my ears already] (*Japanese expression that they’ve heard too much of the same thing, タコ, “Octopus” is a homonym of “Callus” in Japanese -TC)

[Dad: Well you’ll keep hearing it until you get cuttlefish. So, since I was like that, I think it’s alright if you don’t go to school if you don’t want to. But, at my age, I do feel like I lost out on something by not going to school seriously, although it’s not something you could understand yet]

Kenichi looked like he was staring into some far off place as he said this. Stealing a glance at the side of his serious expression, Subaru got the feeling that his father was really unfair, after all.
Usually only showing the side of him pretending to be an idiot, and then in a place like this, he suddenly makes you wonder where all that clowning had gone.

[Dad: It’s alright though… isn’t it? Nowadays people can live to about 80 years old on average. Out of 80 years, wasting one or two slacking around isn’t that big of a deal. Getting back on track while you’re young is easy too. Good thing my salary’s still intact]

Circling his finger around, Kenichi made a dirty-looking smile.
Without looking at Subaru, who had not made a sound since he had begun, he crossed his arms and nodded his head,

[Dad: Being alive means that occasionally you’ll get problems that you couldn’t find the answers to. When I get problems like that, I’d run around like a headless chicken looking for a solution, but it’s also possible to find answers by rolling around in a room, I guess. I won’t blame you while you’re still contemplating. But if you’re beginning to give up, then I’ll say a thing or two]

[Subaru: ……Why]

[Dad: Hm?]

[Subaru: Why, did you suddenly feel like telling me all this today…… There’s nothing different, it’s not a special day or anything. Today’s just, green-peas memorial day]

[Dad: There was a lot on that plate… huh]

In insides of his mouth that had just recently drank cola was quickly drying up.
Taking gasping breaths, Subaru anxiously waited for the answer to his question. Noticing Subaru’s fretfulness from the side, Kenichi gave his neck a stretch with [Hm~~m],

[Dad: I wonder why. Maybe it was because I happened to have a day off, or because I inadvertently thought of it while doing my morning dry-towel rub-down, or because the horoscopes for Aquarius this morning said “PERFECTLY TUNED”, or because the look on your face this morning seemed…… it’s just a lil’bit, but it seemed like it had become better somehow]

[Subaru: My face, got better?]

[Dad: I’m talking about the look here. The face’s still the same, it’s still that scary-face with your mom’s eyes and all]

Kenichi made a scary face by pulling up the corners of his eyes with his fingers, and then, saying [Not only that], he pointed the same fingers at Subaru,

[Dad: I don’t know what happened, but you don’t look like a guy who’s been holed up in a room. Judging from what your mom said, you didn’t go out yesterday either, so you should’ve been a guy who’s been holed up in a room, right?]

[Subaru: …….Uh, I guess so. I’ve also been surfing in the grand ocean of the internet, though]

[Dad: If people can grow up that way, the number of lostlambgirl-chans coming to confide in me on Twitter should be decreasing instead of increasing……]

[Subaru: So you’ve even been doing that kind of……]

While astonished by the extent of his father’s dealings, Subaru didn’t want to let Kenichi get away from the main subject.
On the other hand, Subaru really had no idea what Kenichi meant by that.
The truth is, just as his mother provided in her testimony, yesterday’s Subaru, same as the Subarus even earlier before that, only wasted his time in slothful indulgence.
In only the span of a single day, to say that all of a sudden today, the atmosphere about him changed…

[Subaru: Dad you must have gotten it wrong, or you just didn’t properly look at me before]

[Dad: That last part really stung! You know I’m still using that “Lovely-Devil-Smile” picture of you when you were little as my cell phone screensaver right?]

[Subaru: The lovely part aside, the devil part makes me realize how scary-looking my eyes must have been even when I was little]

Either way, there was no doubt that Kenichi got it wrong.
Yesterday was still yesterday, today was still today. Subaru still spent his time without changing anything at all.
It would be alright to be like this, he thought, and he intended it to be this way. If he just continued on like this, surely, one day, Kenichi and Naoko would realize it as well.
――What Subaru really wanted, that is.

[Subaru: ――Dddagh!]

The moment he thought this, pain struck him again like fiery sparks scattering in front of his eyes.
A shock as if someone actually punched him, like his brain was protruding out of his skull, his cranium creaked and his eyes spun, and Subaru’s seated body crumbled.

The pounding of his heart once again sped up like an alarm bell, and he could hear the sound of his pulse from the blood throbbing through in his ears. His eyes grew murky, the world turned into two, then three.
The sense of nausea surged up, and deep in his chest an incomprehensible heat source asserted its presence.

Each in their own ways they tormented his very existence, like seething accusations they shrieked and wailed.

[Dad: Oyoy, it looks really serious this time. Are you alright, Subaru?]

Unable to ignore the terrible condition he was in, Kenichi placed his hand on Subaru’s shoulder with a worried look on his face. Sensing that touch, Subaru finally lifted up his face, as sweat was emerging on his forehead,

[Subaru: Aah……no, it’s alright. I was just a little, dizzy, that’s all……]

{――It’s been rough, hasn’t it}

[Subaru: ――!?]

Once again, every hair of Subaru’s body stood on end as the voice like the sound of silver chimes rang upon his earlobes.
Kind and tender, the voice was filled with affection and concern. His tensed heart melted at the sound, and as it tended to his suffering, the pain, the creaking, the heat and thier chorus of screams subsided.

What was this voice. Why was the pain and agony retreating from it.
It felt, like a voice he knew. Like one he had been longing for. Yearning and yearning, pursuing and pursuing, clinging onto it, losing it, then regaining it once more――

{Thank you, Subaru}

[Subaru: You’re……]

The sight of her silver hair dancing in the wind branded itself into the back of his eyelids. The light of her amethyst eyes stared straight into Subaru’s face, and every sound weaved from her lips filled him with love and longing.

{For helping me}

What’s going on, what’s going on, what’s going on, what’s going on, what’s going on?
Who is it, who is it, who is it, who is it, who is it, who is it, who is it, who is it, who is it?

――Could she be the cause of his agony? His pain, torment, feelings so bitter that he wanted to puke, could they all be because of her?


He couldn’t breathe. His throat is hot. Something was building up in the back of his eyes.

{It can’t be helped, so}

The tips of his fingers trembled. There was no strength left in his legs. His throat cramped up as though his lungs were convulsing.

{Subaru always tries to cover it up like that}

Covering his face with his trembling hands, holding back the sobs from his clogged up throat, surging heat spilling from his eyes, Subaru――

{Why, did you help me?}

――The answer, was already in his heart.

The moment he saw it, all the unease swirling inside him vanished.
The creaking of his skull, the rising nausea, the dizziness turning the world vague, the frantic pounding of his heart, all came to a stop as if clearing the path for Natsuki Subaru.

Lifting up his face, he wiped away the tears that were about to fall.
Staring fixedly at his wetted sleeves, the only trace that remained of his tears, as if flinging it aside, he turned his wrist and held his hand tight into a fist. And,

[Subaru: Sorry I made you worry. I’m alright now]

[Dad: Really? Well it’s good you calmed down, don’t keep making people worry, gees]

[Subaru: En, my bad. So um, about the question you asked earlier]

Releasing his father’s hand on his shoulder, Subaru turned to face him.
Sitting side-by-side on the bench, Subaru looked straight into his father’s face. Come to think of it, after all their conversations today, this was the first time he truly looked at his father’s face, he thought.
Running away even in place like this, he couldn’t help but smile wryly at his own weakness inside his heart. Then, turning to his father, who now had a question mark above his head, Subaru,

[Subaru: ――There is, someone I like. So, I’m already alright now]

Sketching out the face that was burned into the back of his eyelids, Natsuki Subaru’s resolve to face his past was sealed.

-=Chapter 17 End=-

Next Chapter:


Thank you everyone for being so patient! I had a busy week this week, there was work, my mother’s birthday, studying, and I’ll have an exam coming on Wednesday as well. 

But releasing a chapter at the end of it all is still one thing I look forward to the most :3

Thank you for reading, I’ll get started on the next one!


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122 thoughts on “Re:Zero Arc 4 Chapter 17 [Love Story] (Part 2+3/3)

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  1. Subaru’s reaction to Emilia when he can’t even remember her… it’s a common trope, but it really got me here. Maybe it has to do with how easily she dispels Suffaru.

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      1. There was a similar scene like this when Subaru goes to the dark world and meets satella and has this strong feeling of love towards her.


  2. I was, literally crying reading this 2 chapter! T.T
    The ‘suffering’ that Subaru went through everytime he supposedly go to school, his parent unconditional love for him, and that longing that he felt for something (or someone) which ‘save’ him from all the pain..
    It all makes me really really really miss Emilia-tan right now, E.M.T!!
    Ohh and thank you so much Chicken-sama! I know it’s not an easy thing to correctly translate this chapter so it could properly convey the feeling that the author wants us to feel. Really, thank you for all your hard work!

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  3. Good morning, chicken-sama! Thank you for the great parts! I really love the relationship between subaru and his father in this part and I think that kenichi really is a great person. :3
    Good luck for your exam on wednesday! ❤

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  4. cant wait for chapter 76 the title auto translated to Satella so its got something to do with the witch has to be any way good work on translateing


  5. that opening made me wanna cold tasty cola , chicken works for the cola industry confirmed.
    thanks alot for the double awesome chapters


  6. Wooow well that was a good chapter well i still don’t get so if this is something that the trials made then the one he’s talking about is emilia but that won’t explain why he doesn’t want to go to school ooo “kininarumas” hhh now i feel like that girl from Hyouka, and thanks 🙏 as always for the translation


    1. the fact that he hasn’t remembered emilia uptil now means that this event is a past memory of subaru and i think in the past he wasn’t able to overcome this event properly so the trials put subaru in this past memory challenging subaru to overcome the starts in the trials someone or something said {you must face your past}.and this time he will overcome it thanx to the sound of emilia [probably].

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  7. I easily emotionally project myself into fictional characters and many times have I felt the anxiety and pain of them as if it was my own but never have I cried… Until I read this:

    {Thank you, Subaru}

    [Subaru: You’re……]

    The sight of her silver hair dancing in the wind branded itself into the back of his eyelids. The light of her amethyst eyes stared straight into Subaru’s face, and every sound weaved from her lips filled him with love and longing.

    {For helping me}


  8. Every time emilia’s voice came in my heart exploded everytime. I even rewatched episode 8 & 25 just so i could hear emilia-tan say those exact words. I loooooove this chapter!!!! Thank you chicken-sama for keeping re:zero alive for me!


  9. i guess its emilias voice but i still need to know why he is so pained to go to school… it feels like he made some1 die there or idk, maybe the girl he liked previously died at school or something, with all the focus on that, and how he said there is some1 he likes so its all good now. im sure dead wrong about this but i have to mention it 🙂


    1. Well a neet can be a shut in without a reason right? If you need a reason i think because it is “school” is a big enough reason not to want to go right?


      1. That’s just my perspective, i’ve skipped classes and work before because the same exact reason lol not that it’s good thing


  10. Just a request can you pleeeeaaaase change the {–it’s been tough, hasn’t it} to it’s been “rough” and the {thank you, subaru} … {for helping me} to “for saving me” to make it exactly like the sub in the anime. It’ll give an even more impact i would think because you can relate to the actual text in the anime episodes 8 & 25 (when i watched those episode those exact words had an impact on my heart)


  11. Another wonderful translation that was WELL WORTH the wait. Thanks for all the hard work oh holy one. The feels are coming down hard but its so beautiful I’m almost crying T.T
    Emilia x Subaru ; )


    1. theres alot to continue with, thats for sure, but there wasnt alot of action in the past chapters, BUT (again) anime makes some extensive summaries sometimes, can ruin the story… anyway im fine with the reading, much more details, u can know what he feels exactly (and not to guess by the looks of him in the anime) in animes u can just see the general direction of feelings (sad,happy,angry,embarrassment,mad) u dont get the full picture.


    1. I’m working in Google docs right now, translating in between the Japanese text, then taking into a WordPress draft to do the final edit.
      You can find the live-draft links in the Table of Contents. Lately I’m pasting auto translate text for reference as well, to save time for dictionary lookups.

      I have an online thesaurus, online dictionary, and Japanese-to-Chinese dictionary and auto-translation software on hand as well when I translate.


  12. Oooh, another chapter!! Though confusing sometimes and had me to re-read again and again, I love it!! Btw, this is my first time giving comment after lurking in the dark. So, thanks Chicken-sama, for your efforts.

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  13. Wow! What Subaru went through there was painful to imagine.. Glad that he has very loving and supporting parents, especially his energetic, positive dad.
    So, was the one whispering to Subaru the real Emilia? The one that was unconscious next to him in the graveyard, and somehow possibly linking her consciousness with Subaru, seeing his past and all of those embarassing moments?
    Or is it the manifestation of Subaru’s love and feelings for Emilia in his heart that spoke to him?? Okay, I’am confused and very intrigued on what will happen next.
    Thank you for the update Chicken-God.

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    1. painful to imagine? i need a reason to feel something, hope its not some bad reason at the end, would not be able to imagine his pain otherwise 🙂 would look to me like artificial feelings
      for plot purposes

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  14. This chapter and the previous one solve me a doubt but create me another. I finally understand why petelgeuse (i don´t know if it’s “petelgeuese” or “betelgeuse” because of different translations in the anime) said all the time that subaru is taida (laziness). But then, what I don’t understand is why Subaru hasn’t acted with that laziness throughout the whole series. Arriving in this world seems to have changed everything of his personality from the real world: extroverted, adventurer, joker (just like his father), is continuously helping people disinterestedly… he is totally different. Besides, I also don’t understand why, if he has all that laziness inside him, the witch of that sin didn’t feel or say anything special when he saw him in the “illusion” in the tomb…

    I love that there are still so many open plots and I hope that, even if it lasts for a long time, this great translation project won’t die. I’ll be waiting for the next chapter. Many thanks for your great work. Congratulations from Spain.

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    1. well about the lazy part he told it to every1 he met as i remember, like to rem and to puck, subaru and himself. its just that he identifies the laziness in ppl. he still thought subaru is pride in the end no idea what even makes u an archibishop so cant say if its even true.

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    2. I thought it was “Pride” ? It’s the only vacant spot of the sin archbishops. There are several lines that associate Subaru with pride also. Beatrice told him stop being so “prideful”, and Otto said “What’s with the unnecessary pride in a situation like this!”

      and I think it should be Betelgeuse. It’s the name of the ninth-brightest star in the night sky. Some characters, like Rigel (Subaru’s non-cannon son), are named after stars.

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  15. hey i was thinking about this for awhile now. you all remember the chapter questions and answers in which subaru asks roswaal why didn’t he did anything to help emilia knowing how powerful he is.and roswaal replies with {because,I believe in you.}.what the hell was that,I mean even subaru got furious on this can a man like roswaal who is mastermind can trust someone like subaru [it hurts to say but] who was a complete trash at time.even subaru pointed this out so why a person like roswaal would risk the biggest opportunity he has in accomplishing his goal.when roswaal said he wants to kill the dragon he was pretty determined then how can he believe someone like subaru at the time like that.i know he did this to help emilia raise her reputation.My question is why roswaal believed in subaru.i was thinking alot about this and while i was re watching re:zero i came up with a was in episode 12 when roswaal let a smile slipped through his lips in royal selection hall when subaru got furious after listening so bad things about emilia and how people detest her.that smile was like that something had going on according to what roswaal he knew or better believed that it was going to happen.and the fact that roswaal wanted to keep subaru in the hall even though emilia insisted.he wanted to keep subaru in the hall to somehow test him whether subaru will speak against the wise mans,the nobility and the knights after listening to what they say about after this roswaal had a trust that no matter what it is subaru will defend emilia from it.

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    1. It was heavily implied whatever book Roswaal had after talking to Subaru is able to predict future events, though I doubt it’s specific rather than it is vague predictions.

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      1. but if that’s right then he should have anticipated that subaru wouldn’t be able to win in the other worlds…but he didn’t and rozewaal never came to help and emillia died!
        so maybe rosewaal is actually a BAD GUY?!

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      2. no zaidk its not like Roswaal is a bad guy.i explained below why didn’t come to help Emilia in my third theory even if the book can tell about the future and he knows that Subaru will fail.please read that and if the possibility exist that the book Roswaal has can’t tell about the future then my second theory comes in.I haven’t posted it yet i will post it after someone replies to my last comment.please everyone read all my comments and then think about it.

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  16. but the mere fact that subaru doesn’t fear anyone or anything when it comes to saving emilia shouldn’t be enough for someone who is a mastermind like roswaal to risk the biggest opportunity he has in achieving his goal.roswaal believes in subaru’s will to help emilia no matter what but doesn’t or better can’t believe that subaru’s will would be enough in defeating the witch cultist and forming an alliance with there comes three points in my mind that why did roswaal risked his biggest oppurtunity.
    1. roswaal knows about subaru power to return by death.i dont think this point is the right one because [sorry guys i have to go now i will start nxt time from here.] bye and thanx chicken bro for all your hardwork really appreaciate it.

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    1. like some1 else already wrote: some few chapter be4 the current one – roswal have with him a book that is heavily hinted to be very similar to the cultists book, but not exactly the same. so i guess he knows something about the future, not 100% accurate (changing coz of subarus acts probably, as petelgeuse always was rambling about)

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  17. if its like that the book roswaal has{probably the gospel} can tell about future events then it should have told roswaal that subaru won’t be able to save emilia because subaru failed two to three times.if the book had the power to tell about the future then roswaal would have done something to protect emilia during those three timeline when subaru failed to protect emilia.If the book had the power to tell about the future and roswaal did nothing knowing that subaru will fail then i think my third theory is the right one.

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  18. what is this chicken bro i have posted a comment but it hasn’t shown up i have tried posting it again but it says[Duplicate comment detected; it looks as though you’ve already said that!] but it doesn’t show up.its a lengthy one is it because of that it isn’t posting.but it doesn’t give me an error like the length has exceeded the maximum length.when i click the post comment the page reloads like usual when i post a comment but my new comment doesn’t show up ill try splitting it up.

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  19. my third theory is that it doesn’t matter to roswaal whether Emilia lives or not.we know that roswaal is only supporting Emilia to achieve his goal and that he doesn’t care for her.[it hurts to see that out of very few people who are with Emilia and doesn’t detest her,majority protects Emilia for their own goal and doesn’t care for her.they only stay by Emilia side for reasons except that caring for her,only Subaru cares for Emilia and protects Emilia solely for the reason that he cares for Emilia.Emilia has a harsh life.anyways]roswaal doesn’t care whether Emilia lives or not because he thinks he can achieve his goal either way.roswaal thinks that even if Emilia dies he can still achieve his goal because he may know about the contract between Emilia and puck and that if Emilia dies puck will go on a rampage to destroy the world and that the dragon will eventually come to stop her and if those two battle and even if dragon stops puck,the dragon will be wounded and exhausted since we know that puck is really strong.[we know that puck is really powerful because in episode 17 when puck was battling with Betelgeuse,puck said that if he wants to kill puck he must summon thousand shadows,half of what Satella could.if the dragon couldn’t beat Satella alone then puck can deal some damage to the dragon.]

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    1. im not sure the anime did a great job telling all the story as it is , if im not wrong (and im not sure so fix me if i am) in the manga puck refered to echidna and not satella + puck said maybe Reinhardt can defeat him, he doesnt believe he will succeed in destroying the world , but he will try to (contract and all) – like i said i read it in the manga and maybe the manga is in the wrong – or just bad translators.

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      1. i watched the anime and in it puck didn’t mentioned reinhard defeating him and that puck will fail in destroying the world.puck only says that a troubled one is approaching and he was pointing towards the white whale.and in the anime he mentioned satella not echidna.either way puck will be able to deal some damage on the dragon.[im judging it by how confident puck said he will now destroy the world.puck lives for eternity and a being who lives that long know the full capacity of their powers and they don’t just say things to act really powerful.]

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      2. yeah but rewatching the anime doesnt change the fact that it is maybe wrong accoording to the original story, ofc the manga can be the wrong 1 here but who know. for example in the ending of the anime sloth didnt say anything about the witch genes (i think?) + some times when subaru died, the witch cursing subaru talked to him (“talked” is abit exaggerated, more like said “i love u” and boom he is alive)

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  20. And after the dragon has exhausted in battle,it would be golden chance for Roswaal to kill the dragon.i think this is the reason Roswaal didn’t come to save Emilia because whether Emilia dies or lives Roswaal can achieve his goal and when Subaru asked Roswaal why Roswaal didn’t did anything to help Emilia and Roswaal replied with [because,i believe in you] Roswaal was only trying to mess with Subaru head so that he can end the conversation and Subaru from asking more question.

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    1. roswall was already in the sanctuary waiting so your theory of him waiting to finish the dragon off is wrong. what pisses me off is that he did not mention anything to sub and forced him to suffer a lot more and more infuriating probably knew rem was going to be erased

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      1. Do we know what happened to the world after Subaru died in the timeline where puck goes on a rampage?so we don’t know whether Roswaal was waiting in sanctuary or not?since we don’t know what happened in that timeline after Subaru died I think my theory is right if some conditions are met.


    2. roswaal is trying to achieve his ultimate goal by following the gospel. so when something different from what the gospel says happens, what will happen to his goal? what will roswaal do? is there a way to correct that deviation? 🙂

      and i believe roswaal’s gospel, like peteljuice’s, doesnt write far from what will happen so maybe how he will kill the dragon isnt written on it yet there, but only what happens in the sanctuary as it is where his situation is currently

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  21. chicken bro it worked when i split it but i don’t know why it didn’t gave me an error that it has exceeded the maximum length.chicken bro i think i forgot to thank you for this awesome chapter so chicken bro Arigatō for all your hard work.

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  22. if the book that roswaal has cant predict future[which i think is true because roswaal didn’t come to help Emilia during the timelines when Subaru failed to protect Emilia.i think most probably Roswaal doesn’t know of the contract between puck and Emilia and if its true then Roswaal would come to help Emilia during the timelines when Subaru the above points are right then]my second theory is most probably right.BUT there is a problem in it,before posting my second theory i must ask all of you not to yell at me who is from team rem and if they cant stop themselves then don’t read my before i publish it someone reply to me from team rem that it will be ok.after that ill post it tomorrow.

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    1. I have a theory about that…. I think the criteria Subaru’s Return By Death checkpoint updating is whether it follows the Gospel. So if the Gospel says he will protect Emilia, his checkpoint won’t update until he has saved her. Once he did save Emilia he could no longer go back to save Rem.


  23. Guys, guys… I think it’s pretty obvious, but since Subaru’s curse is obviously related to Satella and Roswaal’s book probably as well. it wouldn’t be a stretch to think that the book accounts for Subaru’s Return from Death without mentioning it. The book says “Subaru will protect Emilia” because it knows that Subaru will fail 3-4 times then succeed. Make sense doesn’t it?

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    1. i got a theory ! the book says to roswal that emiliia needs to:……………… git gut 🙂
      i want to see already what happened with the witches genes subaru got damn it , damn flashbacks

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    2. Right, that’s an interesting way to explain it. It does seem like Roswaal doesn’t need to know how RBD works to trust in the Gospel enough to know that Subaru will fix everything. Surely he must wonder how Subaru manages it though.

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  24. if the book can predict the future does that mean ros knew of the cultist attack on the oni village and waited to save the twins? about rem being erased? that would be a good reason why his servants are so loyal (>-probably so sub would not punch him idk and ram retaliatingsubs power>>>author please do not do the 2 knowing rem will die and perfectly fine with it piece of shitty story ending<<<<<

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  25. My theorie,roswall uses emilia.he is a bishop and like the other bishops he wants use emilia.he wants her to be the new king because he know that she will be the new body for satella.probably he is also the same “roswal” who that witch of greed knew and just changed his look and also,where are the other mathers family member ?.


  26. Could it be that the strong feeling towards Emilia is also due to the chance to really do and move something in his and other people’s lives? Since it is very out of character with respect to the previous Subaru, the “yesterday and the day before” (as said in these chapters) one. Even his parents in this fictitious flashback got it. Is he growing out of his complexes?
    It should be hard to choose the correct expressions to use in order to achieve the real feelings in Subaru’s heart, for that I thank y’all, Chicken team!


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