Re:Zero Arc 4 Chapter 44 [Forbidden] (Part 3/3)

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Translator: TranslationChicken

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Editor: TranslationChicken

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ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO TAPPEI NAGATSUKI, THE ORIGINAL AUTHOR OF RE:ZERO, THIS IS A TRANSLATION OF THE FREE JAPANESE WEB NOVEL INTO ENGLISH
JAPANESE WEB NOVEL SOURCE: HTTP://NCODE.SYOSETU.COM/N2267BE/210/

Previous Part 2/3: https://translationchicken.com/2017/09/14/rezero-arc-4-chapter-44-forbidden-part-23/

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Repeating Echidona’s words in his head, Subaru chewed over the contents that could have only one interpretation.

From what she just said, and her meaningful gaze and smile, there was no way he could be mistaken.
She――the Witch knew. The burden weighing on Subaru’s soul, the residues of his failed futures, the piece of knowledge that should be left nowhere in this world.

[Subaru: How……!?]

[Echidona: Let me answer your question this way. This is my Citadel, and I am the Witch of Greed. I haven’t shown it to you yet, have I?]

To Subaru’s wrenched-out question, Echidona tilted her head and held out her right hand.
Dancing lights descended onto her palm, eventually taking form―― until there appeared a single book bound in pure white.
There was no title inscribed on its cover, and it was about the size of a dictionary. Aside from the fact that its color was blinding white, for Subaru, the sight of the book brought back nothing but reviled memories.

[Subaru: That couldn’t be……a Gospel, could it?]

[Echidona: Oh my, you just made an expression I could understand without even having to look inside this book. It’s as if your face is trying to say “You too!?” Just from that, I think I could already guess what you must’ve encountered in the outside world……]

Having read into Subaru’s inner heart from just the look on his face, Echidona opened the white-bound book in her hand. And, running her eyes over its contents, [Mmhmmhm], she nodded time and again as she followed along its texts,

[Echidona: I see, I think I more or less understand. Although there are still parts I don’t entirely follow, I should be able to fill them in just by looking at you. ……Mnn, it’s wonderful indeed. The feeling of missing pieces falling into place, the indescribable anticipation as the answer draws near. The fact that such feeling exists is precisely what makes life worth living……!]

[Subaru: ……but, aren’t you already dead?]

Being pushed into the back of his seat by the pressure of Echidona’s incensed fervor, Subaru somehow managed to get a jab in. Hearing this, Echidona fiddled with her white hair, sulking,

[Echidona: When you rain on people’s parades like that, even when it’s true, it’s still really demoralizing, you know. Anyway, then let me ease your worries. ……This book is not the same as the “Gospels” in your memories. Recorded in this book is neither the future nor the optimal solutions. Only truth]

[Subaru: Truth……?]

[Echidona: If the Gospel could be called a book of prophecies, then this book in my hands would be a book of histories. This book is not bound by its shape, and its manifestation is as vague and as vast as the oceans. It is not any book, and yet it could be any book that was, or indeed any book that could be…… its blank pages record only truth, and four hundred years ago, people of this world called it “The Book of Wisdom”. But, I like to call it…]

[Subaru: ――――]

[Echidona: ――The Memories of the World]

An outlandish name―― for an equally outlandish power.
If what she said was true, then no matter who the person was, no matter what that person had done, as long as it belonged in the past and in history, it could be read from this book. In terms of gathering information, this would be nothing less than a game-breaking cheat.

[Echidona: But to tell you the truth, I don’t really like to rely on it. After all, only things witnessed with my own eyes can be truly burned into my memories. A magical book that skips the step of “Acquiring” and directly leads to “Acquired”―― as much as I love to learn, it is difficult for me to judge the value of a book that bypasses the process of discovery]

[Subaru: If you don’t want it you could give it to me. I’ll have plenty of uses for it. In fact, if I had that, finding the openings to my problems would be……]

[Echidona: You should abandon that idea if you don’t want to be a cripple]

Echidona cut off Subaru’s smooth proposition straight off the bat, and held out the white-bound “Memories of the World” in front of him,

[Echidona: It may look harmless, but it’s still the instrument of a Witch. The volume of information that it’d burn into the reader’s mind would be enough to completely incinerate the brain of a common man. It’d be best not to read it if you wish to stay safe]

[Subaru: Then don’t shove it in people’s faces! That’s super scary!]

Learning that his breakthrough plan was out of his reach, Subaru’s spirits nosedived.
Seeing him shove the magical book right back, Echidona, with another wave of her hand, transformed it back into particles of light. Leaving aside the convenience of a book that could be stored away without a bookshelf, Subaru finally grasped the true extent of her knowledge.
By possessing this magical book, there was indeed almost “Nothing she does not know”. But to avoid using it just because of personal preference, perhaps only a Witch would think this way.

[Subaru: But if you already know, then that should make things easier. Say, Echidona. You know that I can…… Return b……]

“Return by Death.” Just as he was about to pronounce those words, Subaru’s throat froze.
But it was not due to the same non-negotiable penalty that visited every time he tried to utter the forbidden words.
In front of the frozen Subaru, Echidona was merely waiting for his next words, her white hair swaying in the wind, silently waiting.

Sitting there, she looked nothing like a Witch. There was something almost resembling warmth and sympathy, and the more he felt this way, the faster his heart pounded and the heavier his tongue became.

What froze Subaru’s voice, was the most primal of emotions―― fear.

[Subaru: Haa……haa……]

Subaru already had several opportunities to utter the forbidden words in the past.
To utter the name of the Authority, “Return by Death”, residing in his body.
While it would be difficult to say whether it’d be correct to call it an “Authority”, whenever he tried to tell anyone else, a force prevented him from doing so. A direct pain would grip his heart leaving no room for resistance, a force unbearable and merciless.
And there was once when its venomous fangs did not fall on Subaru, but on Emilia, to whom he had tried to lay bare his heart. The grief and pain of loss of that moment, Subaru could never forget.

There were very few occasions when Subaru so sincerely desired to die, and to simply disappear.
It was not the only time that the bitter, indescribable regret of his own stupidity had weighed so heavily upon him. But in spite of misery and regret―― his heart, gripped by terror, still lacked the courage to take even a single step.

It was not that he was afraid of the pain that would be dealt to his heart. Of course, pain was frightening, but if it was the necessary price on the path to the desired future, then he would grit his teeth and endure it.
However, what Subaru feared was that if he uttered the forbidden words, the dark fingers would turn on someone other than himself.

No. Subaru shook his head.
In the battle against the White Whale, and in the final showdowns with Petelgeuse, Subaru had managed to utter the forbidden words when no one else was present.
Otherwise, he would always be forcibly stopped before he could reveal the secret to others, and his words would simply be discarded from the world in which time stood still. Because of that, he was never questioned further.
And the black hand of the Witch never made a sacrifice of anyone who wished to hear the continuation of those words.

――Except Emilia.

[Subaru: ――――]

The memories returned, of the silver-haired girl lying lightly in his arms.
If he were to taste that sense of loss again, this time, it would surely be unbearable.

It was a good thing he didn’t go insane back then, he thought. After killing Emilia, wandering aimlessly, holding her lifeless corpse in his arms, it was a good thing he didn’t go insane back then.

So unforgivable was his sin. And so terrible his crime.

And so, gripped by fear, Subaru hesitated to say the words.
Before him was the Witch Echidona. Frankly, she was no comparison to Emilia, so shallow was her acquaintance to Subaru.
Even if her heart was crushed, he probably wouldn’t feel the same loss and despair of that moment. That, was his hideous prediction.

But still, Subaru couldn’t move. Because while he was entertaining that naive train of thought, he realized that the conditions were far too different, and the results far too unpredictable.

When mentioning “Return by Death” to an unknowing listener, the forbidden words dealt pain to Subaru’s heart.
And when Subaru mentioned “Return by Death” to someone precious to him, the forbidden words crushed that precious person’s heart.

But what would happen if Subaru were to reveal “Return by Death” to someone who had already found out through some other means?
Would the suffering end with Subaru, or would the demonic hand extend to the one in front of him――

[Echidona: Why don’t you try it and see?]

[Subaru: ――――!?]

[Echidona: Taking action to procure the results one desires, is deserving of my respect. I am not going to veer from that opinion. In fact, I believe it is precisely such actions that make life worth living]

Was she unaware of the cause of Subaru’s indecision, or was it because she didn’t know that she herself could become the target―― no, that would be impossible.

Most likely, the Witch had already seen through all of Subaru’s doubts.
Even though he himself could not reach a conclusion, the Witch understood. Yet, in spite of this, she urged him to go on for no other reason than a conviction from the depths of her heart.

[Subaru: You might not have time to regret it, you know……?]

[Echidona: Then, let me wait with eager expectations for you to break down crying beside my corpse]

Seeing Subaru trying to delay the choice to the last minute, Echidona cheerfully answered.
That attitude was probably to remove any remaining concerns hindering him from making his decision.

Rather than doing so out of consideration for Subaru, it was probably her desire to see the outcome――that was the basis of the sincerity of her words.

Without expectations, and without hoping for one or the other.
There was merely possibility. And for only the desire of the possibility of an answer, she pushed on Subaru’s back.

She must be living without the slightest doubt of the reason of her existence.
Even though he knew there was no way to live on that alone, he nonetheless felt saved by that strength.

[Subaru: Echidona. I can use Return by Death t――]

The forbidden words escaped his lips――
And, in that instant, the world――

 

-=Chapter 44 End=-

 

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Next Chapter: https://translationchicken.com/2017/09/17/rezero-arc-4-chapter-45-conditions-for-the-tea-party/

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(For the thumbnail I spliced an amazing fan art by @HaruSabin with an anime screenshot!)

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Please let me know if you find any typos or missing words ❤

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Chapter 45 Live Draft:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/re-zero-arc-4-45-14426052

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Next Chapter: https://translationchicken.com/2017/09/17/rezero-arc-4-chapter-45-conditions-for-the-tea-party/

65 thoughts on “Re:Zero Arc 4 Chapter 44 [Forbidden] (Part 3/3)

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  1. I was about to go to sleep when I refreshed the page and saw this.
    In hindsight, sleep would have been better, because I just about shouted “OH YOU TEASING @@@@@” at the screen just now.

    Thanks for another great chapter, even with that cliffhanger.

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  2. “After killing Emilia, wandering aimlessly holding her lifeless corpse in his arms, it was a good thing he didn’t go insane back then.” Which chapter is this from?
    Btw, thanks chicken for this great chapter.

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  3. That cliffhanger though 😑.
    Just a thought though what if what happens next is that he dies then wakes back up in front of echidona, meaning because he forced to say RBD he updates his save point. It might be a trigger for saving his progress but is not the only thing that can cause to save. That would be awesome if he can save his progress whenever he wants, not like he would want to because there will always be times that you want to go farther back than to go less when you die

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  4. “The feeling of missing pieces falling into place, the indescribable anticipation as the answer draws near. The fact that such feeling exists is precisely what makes life worth living……!”

    Oh Echidona, you understand us readers. I like this witch, I like her a lot 😀

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  5. Typo: If what she said was true, then no matter who the person was, no matter what that person had done, as long as it belonged in the past and in history, it could __ read from this book.

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  6. “could read” – missing a “be”
    “much I” – missing an “as”
    “person heart.” – supposed to be “person’s heart.”
    Suggestion: “lying lightly” – change to “lying limply,” to emphasis her deadness

    I think this chapter would’ve ended better if it ended with Subaru saying he can use Return by Death. With it ending the way it does, people get 2 thoughts: 1. Oh god the tea party world thing has been destroyed and he’s back in the tomb
    Or
    2. It’s misleading me into thinking 1 when, in reality, nothing out of the ordinary happened.
    Because of this, one is probably right while the other isn’t, and those who are right aren’t surprised by the outcome. I am excited to see if something unexpected happens, however

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  7. Chicken how are you still alive? You’re throwing chunks of your heart everywhere! Or do you have an infinite amount of hearts?

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  8. Like i said in the live draft , why you write Echidona , which is how Daphne calls Echidna , and not just with her name ?

    This way of speaking serves the same roll as the way Otto speaks ( like when he always refers to Subaru as ”Natsuki-san” ) . So when Daphne will talk in later chapters it will not make a difference at all . Or if there is a scene where Subaru is semi unconscious and can’t really tell who is talking or he can’t recognize someone right away .

    Is it because you used it so often now it will be a bother to change it ?

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  9. I was slowly scrolling down as I was reading this chapter part, so at the end when Subaru said ” I can return by death”, that line was just above the taskbar. And even though I was still reading the sentences above, my eyes glimpsed at that line and I had to force myself not to read it so I can finish the remaining sentences above. After I read Subaru’s words (still exactly and directly above the taskbar), I scrolled down very fast and was greeted with the comment section. I had mixed emotions of rage and laughter. *Sighs*. Thanks for the hard work and quality translation, Chicken-sama!

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  10. NANI?!?! That cliffhanger tho…. MY BRAIN TREMBLES!

    Anyway, Echidna was epic and it seems like Echidna is ready for whats going to happen as she is so confident.

    Hey, doesn’t Echidna know everything about Subaru as she has seen his memories? Is that how she knows how he can RBD or so.

    Ultimately, thanks for the chapter Chicken-Sama! I can’t wait for the next chapter ><

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    1. THE WARRUDO! probably nothing happened or maybe the witches will clash with each other (2 witches in the unconsciousness fight 1 other off to banish the other)

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  11. Oh that tease is so mean but a classic re zero move : P

    This part sort of points out just how different Echidona and Subaru are. They are both witty people who could talk their way out of a public exicution but Echidona has this unwavering sense of confidence in her own existence that Subaru is unwilling or unable to have. Because of this, their dinamic is super interesting! Just one more reason to love this series.

    Excellent work as usual and I can’t wait for chapter 45 ; )

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    1. Interesting was to see this situation .

      Echidna isn’t just confident . She probably has the authority of Greed , much like the archbishop of Greed which is a quite powerful ability , and that book .
      Subaru on the other hand in order to gain something from his power he has to fail miserably = see his own shortcomings = get upset and miserable about his current self .

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  12. Why is Echidona trying to start shit with Satella is it because she won her last fight with a little help that she’s essentially dragged her into her own citadel by forcing Subaru to say he can RBD……

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