Re:Zero Arc 4 Chapter 83 [Mutual Confessions] (Part 3/3)

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Translator: TranslationChicken

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Editor: TranslationChicken

(Thank you Austin, Brototype, Dre eam, White Rice, Roanz, Daisuke, Lucky for helping me proofread on the Live Draft! <3)

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ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO TAPPEI NAGATSUKI, THE ORIGINAL AUTHOR OF RE:ZERO, THIS IS A TRANSLATION OF THE FREE JAPANESE WEB NOVEL INTO ENGLISH
JAPANESE WEB NOVEL SOURCE: HTTP://NCODE.SYOSETU.COM/N2267BE/251/

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Previous Par 2/3: https://translationchicken.com/2018/06/04/rezero-arc-4-chapter-83-mutual-confessions-part-2-3/

 

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Before his eyes, Roswaal’s body sank into the bed, frozen rigid. Both his mismatched eyes were now wide open, staring at Subaru, while his lips faintly quivered.
His usual self-assured attitude, that detached, all-knowing air, and that incorporeal queerness――had all peeled away.

[Roswaal: What… could it mean……]

[Subaru: What could it? ……It means what it means]

Called by that faltering voice, Subaru unwittingly answered in a shaken voice of his own.
Pressured by a voice that sounded nothing like the Roswaal he knew, Subaru swallowed his saliva to slightly moisten his parched throat,

[Subaru: Echidona… she disqualified me. Forget the command authority over the replicants, even stepping into the Tomb sends my head reeling. ……I’m in the same boat as you now, can’t go in even if I try]

[Roswaal: Why, did…… no… how could this be…… You, taking the Trials of the Tomb…… otherwise, the Sanctuary’s liberation… and her wish……]

Holding a hand to his lips, Roswaal let out this hollow mutter with a look of disbelief.
Seeing this unexpectedly intense reaction, Subaru was at a loss for words as he realized that his revelation went further than exacting revenge. Not just in this series of loops, but from the day they met, this was the first time Subaru had ever seen Roswaal panic. Just which part of his words could have shocked him to this degree?
However, Subaru only swallowed a breath, and,

[Subaru: In your Gospel… does it say that I will overcome the Trials?]

[Roswaal: ――――]

[Subaru: I know that if things don’t follow the Gospel’s writ, you’ll be ready to give up on everything. But if you’ve decided that breaking through the Trials is my job…… that won’t be happening now]

Like how his victory over the First Trial carried over, and how the Witches seem to share his memories across Return by Deaths, the Citadel of the Witch of Greed lies beyond the rules of this world.
Even if he Returned by Death, the memories of their exchanges in the Citadel would not fade. That was why he felt saved in that place, and why he held more than a little fondness for Echidona. ――And that was why, he knew.

That even if he died and returned to the Tomb, his qualifications would not be restored.
He would need Echidona’s permission to regain them, but to receive Echidona’s permission, he would need to enter the Tomb, yet to enter the Tomb, he would need the qualifications.
――In short, Subaru had completely lost any means of challenging the Trials.

[Roswaal: Is there… a way you could regain the qualifications……]

[Subaru: If there is one, you’d know better than me. If you’re saying you don’t know, then how could I know]

While answering Roswaal’s faint whisper, internally, Subaru noticed a possibility.
Chances were, Echidona would be watching Subaru’s struggles this very moment from inside the Tomb. As if sulking after Subaru rejected her hand, she must be waiting to see what he could do by taking Satella’s.
If that path winds up riddled with failures, and at last he relents and comes back crying to the Witch he had rejected, perhaps Echidona would offer him her hand once more.

――But, if he took Echidona’s hand then, it would mean throwing away every word he had said to Satella, as well as every feeling his heart harbored at this moment.

He would have delivered Emilia to the optimal future in the end.
Even if it was only that, it’d have been better than scattering into a thousand pieces halfway.

[Roswaal: If you rewind the world, can you return to a time before your qualifications were revoked……?]

[Subaru: You seem to be misunderstanding something, my power isn’t omnipotent. It’s not like I can just return whenever I want with no price to be paid…… besides, the point I go back to will be too late. If I return, it’ll be after it’s been revoked. I still won’t be able to enter the Tomb]

[Roswaal: I, see……]

Roswaal’s voice as he replied was weak, and his visage seemed to have aged all in a single moment.
Roswaal had always carried a certain youthfulness about him such that it was almost impossible to discern his age. But now, with his shoulders drooping, even that was gone.
It was the anguished expression of a man who had clung to a delusion for a long, long time, only to be thwarted by something beyond his reach.

Beneath the clown’s makeup, for the first time, Subaru managed to feel that Roswaal was something of a fellow human.
But this fact did not solve anything, no matter how much Roswaal might wish otherwise.

[Subaru: I’m just as lost as you are, Roswaal. But if we work together and talk this over, I’m sure we could come up with a solution]

[Roswaal: ――――]

[Subaru: It might be pretty hard to get things the way your Gospel described, but the writ doesn’t have to be the end of everything. As long as it largely matches…… maybe you don’t agree, but if we just find some way around it……]

[Roswaal: ……not enough]

[Subaru: ――huh?]

Subaru tried to find some kind of compromise and make Roswaal concede. But, with eyes so hollow that he might as well not have heard a single word Subaru was saying, Roswaal murmured something. Inadvertently opening his mouth as he heard this, Subaru took a step forward.
What did Roswaal say just now? Did he mishear him?
And, inching closer, Roswaal’s whisper slid into his ears.

[Roswaal: ――All the ways I tried to corner you, were they still not enough?]

[Subaru: What?]

[Roswaal: I don’t know the circumstances, but if Echidona went back on her decision, you and her must have had a befitting exchange. I was supposed to have steeled your resolve to challenge the Trials before such a rift could have opened between you…… I didn’t succeed]

[Subaru: ――――]

[Roswaal: If I had cornered you further…… made you realize that if you tried to reach for everything, you will lose what’s most important to you…… then this wouldn’t……]

[Subaru: Wait, Roswaal. Wait]

What was he trying to say? Though Subaru had the feeling that it would be something decisive and he absolutely needed to hear it, for some reason he was hesitating.
Because, if he kept listening, he would no longer be able to stand here.

He was sure of it.
Or rather, he had already suspected something along these lines for a very long time.
Yet those confounding suspicions never materialized because Subaru was stuck on the idea that Roswaal would have no reason to do this, as well as the thin but present trust that he had in him.

But the words Roswaal was about to say would sever that once and for all.
Before this happens, he must say something. But no matter how hard he searched inside him, Subaru could not find the words, while time passed on,

[Roswaal: Summoning you and Emilia to the Sanctuary, knowing Garfiel’s disposition…]

[Subaru: ――――]

[Roswaal: Forcing Emilia-sama to challenge the Trials, knowing its horrors, so that her wounds would spur you to action……]

[Subaru: Wait, please wait. Wa――]

And――

[Roswaal: Showing you that you will inevitably lose those you cherish in a place beyond your reach, and by doing so, perfect you…… all of that, all of that was still not enough]

――with this, Roswaal had just confessed to pulling the trigger on the tragedies in the Mansion.

-=Chapter 83 End=-

 

 

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Next Chapter: https://translationchicken.com/2018/06/10/rezero-arc-4-chapter-84-denied-x-denied-x-denied-part-1-2/

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122 thoughts on “Re:Zero Arc 4 Chapter 83 [Mutual Confessions] (Part 3/3)

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  1. Roswaal’s make Me shivered.

    Roswaal already know Subaru can rewind Long Time ago(gospel effect?)
    And Roswaal already know Subaru will challange trials if Mansion abandoned. Roswaal already sacrificed lot of things only for Emilia become a King. Damn it Roswaal

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      1. It’s the dragon who contracted Echidona’s soul into her tomb if I’m not mistaken. Perhaps Roswaal thinks if he kills the dragon, he’ll be able to resurrect Dona in the physical world. Maybe he only wants to make Emilia king as a means to manipulate Subaru…

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        1. Ya know, no matter how much I think about it, how much thought I put into it… It’s hard to imagine what this dragon is.
          Is it really just a dragon?
          Is it a given title, lost in translation? like, the great hare.
          Or is it something else.

          We’ll find out one day

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          1. It’d be funny if this dragon turned out to be Subaru’s blood relative.
            Father
            Uncle
            Random clerk at that convenient store

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          2. That guy, that would be interesting. What if it was like a humanoid dragon? And convenient store clerk? HAHA HAHA! you made my brain tremble

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          3. Dragon is like half-god in that fantasy world and Lugnica is kind of country that is blessed by dragon which is Volcanica. He is a genuine dragon, not only a title. (Do you think ground dragon is a title for patrasche??)

            The winner of the royal selection will meet the dragon personally as ascension ceremony or baptism or such. I assume roswaal is aiming for that moment to kill the dragon.

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        2. Actually, in this case he’s probably after something else, but needs Emilia and Suabru to access the Dragon and kill it to do so. I wpn’t say because it is a spoiler.

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          1. some of the what ifs mention the dragons blood being used for miracles and there is something in that frozen forest that seems important well semi spoilers but the blood ‘may’ be used to unfreeze it which is the reason Emilia is aiming to be king. idk and they probably could just ask it to undo the seal

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  2. the most shocking revelation of all: Roswall might actually have been the one to have hired Elsa in the first loop to begin with. Nothing else makes sense, nobody else knew about Emilia’s and Rooswal’s plans for her participation in the royal election at this point, so he was the only one with the necessary information to give Elsa this mission of stealing her this royal badge. And all that just to underhandedly draw Subaru on to Emilia’s side. Roswaal seriously is a garbage human being.

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          1. Well Kenny in AoT said “they were always drunk on somethin… thats why they could keep going.“

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    1. spoilers……………….kind of………..yep i realized this the moment i read of him having that ‘perfect’ book and it gets worse i have read the twins background story he basically waited till their village was destroyed and picked up the twins like he could have prevented the entire thing and is implied he was the one to lead the criminals to their hideout in the first place. their getting ‘revenge’ was the main reason they stayed in the mansion. so fked up.

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    2. idk about shocking but i assumed that to be true the moment i knew he had a cultist book sub already tried chocking him to death over rem on that loop yet i was left scratching my head that no one thought of this or the other odd ball things like how was garfs mom went missing/died/who knows why was ross late on ‘saving’ the twins. guys know that emelia was not alone in the capital but some how ram lost her more like not really looking. final mansion loop why did roshit leave(?.?) then to find out its donas book? trust her why??

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  3. What I find the most interesting… Is that although Subaru described his powers as “not” omnipotent… The fact remains.. Subaru has the authority to bring whoever he wants into the future…

    And leave whoever he doesn’t.

    And right now.. Roswaal is on thin ice.

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    1. Yup, dropping the side effects, being immortal and having pre-knowledge of the events and people is pretty goddamn powerful in my book. What’s even better, his apparent powerlessness lets him stay below radar of his enemies. In their arrogance and contempt they show him their cards and even mercy – right until the moment it’s too late.

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        1. except rosi is strong very strong tappei mentioned in a q/a that roshit could beat the white whale by himself and that ‘horned’ ram would be stronger to bad roshit was late in ‘saving’ them

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      1. He just can’t control his check point. Remember rem’s case. Subaru might even screw up like that again in the future.

        RbD updates his check point whenever he succeeds at overcoming his own life threatening problem. If by minor mistake on the trial and error he managed to survive but other people dear to him died in the process, he wouldn’t be able to save them.

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        1. Well, RBD is dark and self-centered ability, after all. Subaru will have to take the front lines in every battle and always keep what’s important close to him.

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  4. “Subaru was at a loss for words as he realized that his revelation went further than exact revenge” should it be exacting revenge?

    “he would need enter the Tomb” missing a “to” before enter.

    “as well every feeling his heart harbored this moment.” Missing an “as” after well and an “at” before this moment.

    “He would have delivered Emilia to the optimal future in the end” the to should be before Emilia or deleted altogether.

    “Even if it was only that, it’d been better than scattering into a thousand pieces halfway” missing an “have” before been

    That’s all that I could find. Thanks for the translation as always!

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  5. That moment when we realized that witch of greed got jealous over witch of envy for being the one chosen by subaru.

    Oh wait… the one subaru chose was satella, not witch of envy.

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  6. The question is, does it make Ros Subaru’s enemy now? Like Ros has said, his support is indispensable for Emilia. I doubt he will just accept Subaru’s way of doing things even if he finds a way out.

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      1. The guy let himself to be eaten alive when something didn’t go his way.
        I hope he doesn’t start killing people to force Subaru to ‘redo’.

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          1. That being?
            If you mean the snowfall, that was his plan. But now that his plan is worthless, he might go completely fuckitall and apply direct genocide to civilians. Or jump off the Subaru-wagon by killing himself.

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        1. be counterproductive he needs sub pissing someone off that can time travel cant be a wise decision. the thing is ros needs him but sub does not really need ros at all. if sub just wants emelia to be happy then she does not have to be king for that and sub can help another candidate to achieve her goals too. he is on good terms with all of them xd

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  7. Anonymous. I d To answer your question without throwing out any spoilers.
    Roswall is following the gospel as it is written. Echidna wants Subaru to make the contract because it allows her to see what he sees feel what he feels and for her insatiable curiosity as the living embodiment of greed after Four Hundred Years of Solitude what more could she want. The gospel is just a tool she’s using to achieve that end.

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  8. Well, Roswaal can officially go to hell now

    After all these loops, I really doubt Emilia will be the one to go through the trials, which only leaves room for Garfiel to do so.

    If he liberates the Sanctuary, I believe it will be an opportunity to redeem his character. We’ll get to learn more from him, and thanks to Dona’s help, Subaru now knows that he’s afraid of the future. For that reason, I think he secretly passed the first and second trial but got stuck on the third due his fear on what will come next, and Lewes and the clones probably a crutial factor here, which Subaru already learned of. If this happens, Subaru could gain a powerful ally

    If not, then Emilia must open up to Subaru first, or Roswaal must share more of what he knows and actually be helpful

    I still have no idea what can be done about those chunks of meat in the village though. I feel like that’s the worst threat of all, and we still have to learn what exactly happened

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    1. Something tells me that the chunks of meat were not just the corpses of villagers, or a Elsa killing spree. I think it was something far worse

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  9. so subaru is able to talk to Roswaal about Return by death without the witch of envy fucking him over?

    Is this a Plothole or is he able to do it now because he is on the good side of Satella?
    He might wana talk to emilia now!

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      1. yeah, i thought about that too, but i m still a bit suspicious about it.

        Time to wait until he tries to tell someone he can use “Return by…” ‘drops dead’

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  10. Took me about a month to catch up from where the anime left off to get to here. I am now patiently waiting for new releases; this is so exciting!

    Out of curiosity, do you have a release schedule for these parts? Not to sound selfish, but it’d be a bit less tedious for me if there was a date I could hop on and read instead of just checking whenever I think of it

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  11. Either I’ve misunderstood or Subaru has inadvertently saved those in the mansion. If Roswaal decides there’s no point in trying to corner Subaru anymore, perhaps he’ll not pull that trigger this time round… I can hope.

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  12. At last i caught up to you i have been reading this novel in a week and at last i am here thanks chicken man i swear you are the best dude this novel is better than watching even the anime i am adicted i hope you stay doing this novel and keep up dude i swear you are the best thank soooo much man i finished 81 chapter in 2 weeks man thanks again and keep this shit up😍😗😍😗

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  13. I already knew Roswald was the one behind the tragedy in the mansion, and that is because people here are spoiling in the comments section!!! Seriously, people should stop spoiling, some of us want to enjoy the story without being spoiled.

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    1. That is why I started avoiding comment section. Working my brain to make theories loses its ts point when I see the answer right away.
      Spoiled people feel superior doing this, apparently.

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        1. I didn’t mean this plot twist alone. Besides, many more things suggested there was a traitor in the Emilia’s camp who knew the mansion well, like the timing of Elsa’s attack and her way of infiltration. Subaru has even suspected Frederica on those clues.

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          1. true the timing of things was far to perfect and the other odd ball things like rosswall leaving on the final mansion loop, leaving sub at the capital and immediately going to sanctuary leaving rem to tell sub of the alliance when he breaks down so god damn strange. i was wondering forever why emelia was alone at the capital. etc

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  14. I have a doubt and please no spoilers (if it can’t be helped then just say it can’t be answered without spoiling).
    So in this reality Rem doesn’t exist for anyone but Subaru. So I find it puzzling that Roswaal send Elsa to the mansion to kill those Subaru cherishes when the only 2 in the mansion as far as Roswaal knows is Fredrica and Beatrice. Now Fredrica was someone Subaru had only just met and Beatrice well she won’t be easy to kill, and also in one Subaru’s encounters Elsa asks him where the Half elf is as though she was looking for her. So is it possible that his gospel also told him abt Rem and her presence in the mansion? Because I find it puzzling Roswaal wld go to that length just to get rid of 2 people who at that point was not as close to Subaru as the others.

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    1. Maybe Elsa just remembered Emilia was near to Subaru 1st time so she decided that Emilia could be near him this time? Sorry for my bsd English

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    2. Iirc, during the second loop Elsa asked Subaru where the half-witch was. I thought she was sent to kill everyone who happens to be in the Mansion.
      But then she spared Subaru and Rem ’cause they were not her targets.
      Maybe it’s really just about Beako and Frederica, since they are most likely to be addressed by Subaru for help.

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    3. the only ones that remembers rem is sub, beatrice >no idea why< and possibly al . petra maybe one he cares about and the village was destroyed on some loops so it may be on the list too. if anything he has a bad relationship with Frederica to me that is cant even trust her for one thing. the book might have mentioned rem and i have a feeling those contracted with witches are immune idk puck doesnt remember so it affects spirits.

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    4. … Who’s Petra?
      Also, this would have been planned in advance, before Roswaal left the Manor for Sanctuary. That is, before Rem’s Existance was consumed. Whether she would have been at the Manor and targeted, or accompanied them to Sanctuary is impossible to say. Regardless, the orders Elsa recieved continued to exist, auto-edited to account for changes after Rem’s Name was removed from Memories of the World.

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      1. Can’t tell if sarcasm or genuine, but Petra is the little girl from the village that became a maid at Roswaal’s mansion. She was killed by Elsa many chapters before this, twice in fact, in quite the qruesome fashion.

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      2. the thing i want to know is if rosswall knew that was going to happen to rem and did not give a fuck or let it happen to make sub ‘perfect’. i mean they just so happen to have a back up maid seriously wtf. i think he did not i mean why would the book mention it in the first place it obviously considers the maids to be fodder. no matter how you look at that it just pisses me off and i am not really a remtard i just think that could have been avoided

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    5. Without spoiling anyting Elsa tells Subaru during one of the Mansion loops that her targets are Beatrice and Frederica she has no knowledge of rem’s existence, incidentally Petra isn’t a Target either just collateral damage. Elsa only asks about the half witch when she sees Subaru because she’s itching for a rematch, Emilia isn’t on the list of targets from Roswall because she’s a half blood so she’s stuck in sanctuary

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  15. In all seriousness, who couldn’t see this coming? It’s good to see Subaru taking a less destructive approach, but to see him waver against his antithesis and being taken aback by Roswaal’s choice of wording makes me feel like he’s learned nothing.

    ご苦労さほ, Chicken-dono.

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    1. i have and my point that it was so damn obvious as to not be spoilers was mute. good point satella already told him to rely on his friends more and to cherish his life more.

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  16. noooooooo :(((( im finally caught up! while i am excited to catch up with all the other readers of this site i am also stumped ;((((,, iv been reading Rezero everyday since finishing the anime (2 weeks ago) and im just so dam caught up in the story i want more more more! Japanese people are dam lucky they are a whole 2 arks ahead of us T_T ,, well that being said ill definitely being checking for chapters being released and again i want to thank you chicken for translating for us you are the man!^^

    (P.s tomorrow ill be doing my first donation to you i know you said its already fine with us just reading the story with you but i feel like i need to support you in some way because if it wasnt for your efforts and this website there would be no way for me to continue the rezero story after the anime unless i learned japanese reading and writing which i am seriously thinking of doing lol foreal though xD!)

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  17. Without spoiling anyting Elsa tells Subaru during one of the Mansion loops that her targets are Beatrice and Frederica she has no knowledge of rem’s existence, incidentally Petra isn’t a Target either just collateral damage. Elsa only asks about the half witch when she sees Subaru because she’s itching for a rematch, Emilia isn’t on the list of targets from Roswall because she’s a half blood so she’s stuck in sanctuary

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  18. This explain why roswall didn’t help at all in all the loops so far,also roswall way of doing things was mentioned in ep 17(i’m not sure if it’s spoiler or not ).

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  19. Wasn’t it obvious from the beginning that Roswaal was responsible, or at least partially responsible for the shit that’s been going on in the sanctuary from the get go. I mean he was the one that instructed Subo and Emilia to go there right, then doesn’t that mean that he had planned something for them there.

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